Life's a journey... Enjoy it!

2009-05-22T00:10:00.002+08:00

It was the worst result of my university life. I hope not to see that ever again.

This is perfect proof that some subjects can only be mastered with hard work and consistent effort. I need to thank my lucky stars that I can graduate with my class of honours intact.

I think that this is proof I may not be as suitable as I thought I will be as an accountant, or as an auditor, or as an research analyst. Basically, anything too quant is probably not my forte. I can deal with numbers, but not as well as I would like.

Some of you may notice that this post is rather deliberate and careful with words, cos I know that some of the audience may take issue with the vulgarities I tend to spew online. But, just let me vent my frustrations here, okay? =)

FUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!! WHAT SHIT RESULTSS!!

arrr, much better.

I think I will be closing this blog once I start work. No point updating this blog anymore since I will probably be busy working. I really hope that this shit result will not affect my chances in future opportunities next time. If it does, I will be buying up all available AA306 text and burning them in a bonfire right in front of NBS!!!! hah a ha ha ha hah

2009-02-07T08:52:00.002+08:00

Been experiencing humbling situations this week...

It is time for me to buck up and be motivated to succeed...

Lack of self confidence has always tripped me up in the worst possible times... I need to show that I am worthy of it, and will exceed expectations!

jiayou jiayou!

2009-01-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

From now on, only hard work and persistence can pull me through. No longer will I rely on "luck" and "smarts". I have stretched my luck too far, and have over-estimated how much my "smarts" can compensate for the inherent laziness.

time to sleep, and reflect.

2009-01-26T03:17:00.000+08:00

what the hell am i thinking? ...

2009-01-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

The new year promises certain "milestones" in my life...

the end of january is gonna be an exciting time for me... fingers crossed!!

Feb'09 promises, as every other Feb in other years, to rip my wallet to shreds~

May 09 will be my unofficial graduation!! no more studies!!

July 09 will be when I start work... finally, earning my own keep! I still remember wanting to get out of the rat race, but looks who is jumping head first into the rat cage? ha ha

2008-11-24T00:25:00.002+08:00

"A person can improve his or her character by practicing self-discipline, while a good character can be corrupted by repeated self-indulgence." Aristotle

It makes perfect sense. But nobody is perfect. Procrastination is nobody.

HAI

Blog revived!

2008-11-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

I cannot give up.

I know my capabilities. However, self confidence sometimes can be broken down so easily.

Fuck it. One thing at a time!

2008-01-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

Thank you. It was a shock to receive such an expensive gift from you, my friend. I am very touched and abit guilty that you gave the gift to me. I hope that you don't see this as corny. But really, I thank you for being so generous.

Will treasure the gift, really. Hope that you will be able to choose the right path to walk on!

Cheers! =)

2008-01-02T14:18:00.000+08:00

wow, time to blow the dust off my blog...

New year ahead of me.

I had wanted to write a super depressing post. I don't know why. I always end up with sad and dark posts whenever I blog.

Whatever. Fuck.

Let us have a great year ahead! May the path ahead be shown to me in due time! =)

2007-10-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

He has always been living in the shadows of X.

X knows all of his failures and shorcomings, and is not afraid to reveal them to everyone.

He has no choice, he has to cooperate and give in to X.

It is not a very bad life. In fact, he is doing quite well, even though he is always in the shadows of X. He has done well in school, made new friends and picked up new hobbies. Everything is going well. But whenever he thinks back of his failures, the shadow of X looms over him, and destroys his self-confidence. The fear of X dominates his thoughts, and he withdraws into his comfort zone. It is his tendency to be meek and submit to the whims of X. Whatever self confidence he has built up is quickly eroded by X.

His existence is not impressive, just mediocre. It is... not something he desires for.

One day, realisation struck him. He had enough. He realised that the best thing to do now is to accept his failures and shortcomings. And move on. Learn from his own failures. He realised that there is nothing to be ashamed of. Admitting to his failures and faults, is the bravest thing he has done.

He admitted to his faults. X is very shocked. X does not know how to react. X just stood there, and stared at him.

He looked at X. X no longer looked that domineering. In fact, X looked just like him, when he was depressed! He peered over X's shoulders. He has forgotten the sights surrounding him. All along, he has been focused on X and the shadow on the ground. Looking around, everything looked so inviting, so pleasing to the eye.

"What have I missed out on? What an idiot I am!" he muttered to himself.

Without looking at X again, he strided off, and took in the wonderful sights. The freedom to roam around overwhelmed him. These feeling of happiness, confidence and enthusiasm have never occurred to him while he was in X's shadow.

"Treasure this feeling...Never forget it." he told himself.

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What is X? I believe X exists in everyone of us. X is this second voice in our head, telling us to give up, to slack off, to procrastinate.

Fight X off. Believe in yourself. And take pride in your own uniqueness. Everyone is special. Do not let X tell you otherwise.

Note: To anyone who reads this, sorry for the simplistic and crude story. Just something I thought of suddenly, and I just have the urge to write it down. =p

2007-10-23T02:16:00.000+08:00

I love challenges.

I like the way they screw me up and leave me there sobbing.

I love the way everyone of us will eventually screw these challenges back and grind their faces to the ground.

This is nothing.

2007-10-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

When is the best time to be a nerd?

Now! Before the exams! This is the best time! If not now, then when? AFTER your exams?

(this post serves as a reminder to me that I will study at any free time possible...)

2007-09-12T08:05:00.000+08:00

Are you living the dream life you always wanted?

Or are you living a life that is carefully planned for you?

Why do I always hear stories of how the loved ones diappoint?

Be firm in your beliefs, and stand for your own rights.

You are the one who can make a difference in your life. No one else.

2007-08-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today was my first real attempt at trying to network.

It was a real eye opener. I cannot believe what kinda crap I will say just to make myself sound intelligent. haiz

Oh well, I suppose it will only get better with practice.

2007-08-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

At 22 years old, it is really hard to convince myself that I still have a long way to go.

In another 2 years' time, I will be working hard for my monthly salary. Or, I will be working hard earning a meager allowance while building up my business. It seems that starting my business is no longer feasible. The security of a job seems so much more important to me now. I don't think I can tolerate the uncertainty of a business.

Starting a business now will be very selfish of me, because it will only add more stress to my parents. My dad is going to retire in 1 or 2 years' time. Will I be selfish enough to ask my dad to work for another 5 years while I use his hard-earned money to splurge on my selfish desire of starting a business?

I think the choice is probably obvious by now. My parents had wanted to depend on me when my dad retire. My brother still need financial support from my dad's retirement funds for further education. Who am I to draw on these funds which are intended to support my brother's education needs? Will I really allow my parents to work until they are physically unable to work? What kind of son will allow that?

However, I will not give up on my dream of starting up a business, and a successful one, to state the obvious. Perhaps, I will jump on the chance when the capital requirement is within my budget. But till such an an occasion arises, I will be better off shelving these grandose plans, and focus on my studies.

The better your grades, the better your resume looks. The more senior your appointments in your CCa are, the more impressive you are. If you happen to dabble in community service, your resume will just be about perfect. This is such a game we must play. No one can avoid this game. Even if you think that it is morally wrong, participation in the "meritocracy" game of the society is still compulsory.

I feel that....... this is being practical. I know that stating these unspoken facts can be.... nauseating for some. But at this stage in my life, this is a game that I must play, no matter the cost. I only pray that I will be able to treat everyone fairly and sincerely, and not undermine my moral values.

To accomplish this with my integrity intact. I think I will have really aced this game.

What else have I been doing? I believe some of you may know that I have invested most of my savings in the stock market.

Have my investments done well? I think that my portfolio is already fortunate enough. The subprime crisis in the US have hammered the Asian markets this 2 weeks. The STI dropped below 3000 points in the afternoon and recovered to slightly above 3130 points. Do note that just a month ago, the STI was in the high 3500s.

What does it all mean? In layman terms, the stock market is not doing well. The general sentiment is one of anxiety, fear and uncertainty. What can a small time investor like me do?

I think that it is important to think rationally instead of acting on fears. My selections of stocks are so far, quite satisfactory to me. In fact, I was thinking of buying up more of these stocks if my target prices are met.

You may think that I am crazy for still wanting to invest some more into the volatile stock market. However, I think there it is only during periods where people act on emotions rather than rationale, are there big opportunities for level headed investors to choose from.

Let us observe the market and see how the market sentiments sway. Hopefully, there will be even more opportunities for me then!

2007-08-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter is really a good book.

Hai, sorry dear, I swear that I was distracted by the intriguing storyline and not by the handsome lad with a scar on his forehead. Serious.

2007-07-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

小弟弟，你要吃什么？

This question from the smiling auntie at the foodstall made my day. ha ha ha

I still look like a 小弟弟, probably around 18!

ha ha ha

but really, it has been so fast. I am now almost 22. There is not more "room for mistakes"; "will do better next time"; "no problem boy, you will learn from this". We are not in secondary school or JC now.

While working, it is " why is this not done?'; "do you know how to count? 1,2,3,"; "will you follow up on the tasks that I gave you this morning?"; "where's your responsibility?"

My accounting internship will be ending this month. My meager pay aside, I have really learnt many important lessons.

Opportunities are no longer spoon-fed to you. No longer will your teacher encourage you to take up the role of a student leader in a CCA. You need to look for for such opportunities, and grab them.

Climbing up the corporate ladder is important, but the relationship between colleagues and superiors must always be nurtured. A cohesive and friendly atmosphere will make the workplace a much more pleasant and productive environment. The boss is solely responsible for creating such an environment. When the leader cannot lead well, the workers cannot be expected to work hard for him!

Leadership is so important, and yet many people confuse leadership with dictatorship.

Setting a good example is perhaps the most important thing for a leader to do, and yet, so many leaders talk the walk and only "supervise" their subordinates.

This was indeed a humbling and enriching experience. I hope that when, and if, I start my own business, I will be able to become a good leader.

22 years old, and yet my future is not carefully planned yet. Hai.... what will I be doing for my future? Will I be struggling up the corporate ladder? Or fighting my way to establish my business? Or should I respect my parents and join the civil service?

2007-06-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

Today is a very irritating day. Kana arrows for no reason.

A good lesson learnt. You can be nice, but do not expect others to be nice.

Always remember to watch your back, and protect yourself. Helping others, is only to a certain extent.

Hai, hopefullt this can clear up asap, but i foresee another session of arguing about credit/debit notes again.... better go through the whole thing thoroughly first with my senior man.....

hmmm, will i ever get my "performance review" as promised? is there any hope of a "revision of pay"?

Hmmm, if I strike 4D first prize tml, maybe.

2007-06-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Recovering from fever.

Actually, having a fever is not a bad thing. You get to sleep in on Thur, Fri, Sat and play on Sun.

HA HA HA HA

Hai, when will my passive income notion ever come true?

What happened to my business ideas? Suddenly, I see myself slaving away at a 9 to 5 job...

HMM, what if it is a 9 to 5 job paying a 5 digit figure? hmmmmmm

ha ha ha, just day dreaming.......

back to sleep! another new day, for this intern!

2007-06-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

Thank you God, for giving me this chance. Though my efforts have fallen short, You are willing to look past my mistakes.

I will not squander this chance away.

2007-06-08T01:42:00.000+08:00

Believe in yourself.

Believe in your self worth.

Don't let one aspect in life belittle the immense potential you have.

Be strong.

2007-05-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

Being an intern is not as easy as it sounds.

It is not about buying coffee, buying lunch, photocopying, running errands.... though well... such activities are inevitable...

But the thing is, I am glad that I am learning/ doing something useful, something related to what I am studying. The work is piling up, but I am doing fine! What I am more afraid of is to be a burden to the accounts department. Hai. I know my endless questioning and hopeless "blur cock" face will definitely jam up work. I just hope that I can learn things quicker and do my work faster.

So, yup I will probably be in this company for another 2 months. Work can be quite tiring, yet strangely satisfying. My God, I am actually beginning to like numbers and figures... maybe I will really become a fat, chubby, grossly overweight acccountant next time who guzzles beer and spill half of it over the financial statements...

SHIT. I will not let that happen!!!! I will exercise!!!..... probably =)

2007-04-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

I screwed up my Stats paper.

Ok for Accounting 2.

So-so for OB.

Should be OK for Biobiz.

Prediction:
Stats: C
Accounting 2: B

(Carlene here. nm lah, nm lah, nm lah. My paper in half an hour...doom...)

Sorry for the interruption.

OB: B

Biobiz: B+

Hopefully I am proven wrong in a positive way.

oh well. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

2007-04-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

I received a THIRD letter from the Health Promotion Board. OH my GOD. Let me review its contents:

National Behavioural Surveillance Survey on Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STDs), HIV and AIDS

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...
....

Hmm, ok, not so bad. It is a nation-wide survey and I have taken part in it. This is what caught my eye:

"For those who have taken part in the survey....... We would greatly appreciate if you can collect your vouchers or tokens of appreciations as an incentive for your effort."

I kid you not. The above statement is in BOLD.

Ha ha ha, this is the first time I received a letter practically forcing me to collect a token of appreciation.

They did set up a booth in NTU for us to collect the vouchers/token but it just slipped off my mind. Anyway, one cannot collect the voucher if you cannot produce the acknowledgement slip at the end of the survey. I lost it. And I'm not going through another 30min just to print that acknowledgement slip. Can't you guys just donate my voucher to the needy? Or donate the token (i suspect is a birth control contraceptive) to the lusty lechers in Geylang?

Aiyo, I hope they don't haul me down to Health Promotion Board to force feed the voucher down my throat. Really la, I cannot produce the stupid acknowledgement slip! I just do it for free, can???

ha ha, what an amusing letter.

Oh well, back to study.

2007-04-19T03:22:00.000+08:00

3.30am.

Only covered 3 lectures. 9 more to go.

Thought of many things, but decided to stuff them down my throat.

Sleep. Wake up tml to study.

Complete waste of the nite, not productive at all.

If you guys will excuse my language, FUCK.

Good Nite!

2007-04-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

I didn't feel so good after today's paper. Let me hope for the best.

Holidays are coming! Do I work for the experience, or work for the money?

Won't it be marvellous if I have both? ha ha

Let's see how my interview goes on Friday...

2007-04-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

I always looked at myself in the mirror and confident that my physique is still there.

One day, one of my seniors saw me in hall and commented.

"hey say wei! you're fat!"

The world came tumbling down, and the whole sky turned black.

Torrents of rain pelted at me, mocking at my dismal expression.

That night, I made up my mind to run 100 times a week and hit the gym 2000 times a week and lift 100000kg of weights everyday!

The next day, I was stuffing crackers down my throat and patting my stomach contentedly.

Ha ha, fuck the exercise.

2007-03-25T16:18:00.000+08:00

i have great plans for the weekend, intending to utilise every minute of it catching up with my homework. Alas, once at home, my laziness creeps in and wasted a beautiful Saturday away!

I admire those people with discipline to be up to date with their work. I think that it has become such a addictive habit for me to "relax" over the weekend that I just can''t seem to break the momentum. Humans are creatures of habit, and it is really hard for me to embrace change.

Goals set, but put aside. Statements made, but left forgotten. How I wish I can alter my brainwaves to focus on the important and essential things, and not read comics, take afternoon naps, watch anime, surf the internet and blog!

well, i'll probably have more time to blog after the exams... OH SHIT EXAMS!!

hai!

2007-03-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

I was taking a break from the accounting tutorial just now, and started day dreaming.

I dreamt of a really funny incident.

I was 19 years old then, a freshly minted officer barely 2 months old in my new unit. I went to the army market in Lavender to get some "barang barang" for the upcoming field camp. I remembered vivdly asking the Indian shopkeeper, "Uncle, snake powder how much?". I can't remember the price, but whatever the price is, I told him that it is too high and quoted him a lower price.

In the army market, it is well known that you should bargain so as to get the best bang out of your NSF allowance. Being a sucker for tradition, I bargained with the Uncle too.

The Uncle, however, is a seasoned shopkeeper, AKA lao jiao, who doesn't take kindly to kids bargaining. He pointed to another stall and told me with a very straight face," Boy, that shop much cheaper. Go there la!"

Being the naive 19 year old that I was, I thanked the Uncle and approached that shop. A query for the price of the snake powder turned my cheerfulness into shock, shame and anger. The price was at least 50% higher than Uncle's!

I spun around and saw the Uncle laughing, gesturing to his colleagues and pointing at me. Obviously, this damn fuck here was the butt of his joke.

Now, that I think about it, it was really funny. However, at that point of time, I would admit that it really affected me. I was naive, unbelievably naive and believed that all people are saints. I trusted every word they say as I think they have no reason to lie to me. When I was young, the adults say that honesty is the best policy. If you want people to trust you, you must trust them. and all the ya da ya da. Unfortunately, I must have forgotten to read the fine print. I was that gullible.

3 years later, I am probably the most naive person around at age 22. yeah, of course I don't believe ridiculous crap, but well, it is probably easier to make me fall for a lie than (insert your most far fetched goal here).

I really hope that there are no hidden agendas when people are talking to you. I want to believe that all people are sincere and really want to know you better. I want to believe that they want to know me because I am a interesting friend, not because I have 1 million bucks or because I know this hot girl that you desperately want to fuck.

But who am I to complain when I am guilty of having a hidden agenda too?

Someone once said that he will want to remain as a 19 year old kid forever, because adults have too many problems.

Sometimes, I really agree with him.

Oh well, perhaps I am being too cynical here. Of course, there are many friends around me who are nice, interesting people. I really want to look at this world without tinted goggles. Can I talk to the real person inside of you and not your fucking mask?

Oh dear, I better stop swearing. Come to think of this, what triggered this off anyway? hmmmmmmmm...... oh well.... time to chiong my accounting tutorial!

2007-03-03T02:46:00.000+08:00

1 of my friends from the army gave me a testimonial (friendster... is it still the trend now?? haha)

a short, simple one. Yet it brought back so many memories. Tekong rambutans are the best that I have eaten. So are the durians!

1 of my former recruit gave me a testimonial too.

2 sentences long, and it made my day (or night).

I looked through the photos taken in those 2 years, it really seem so fun and exciting. Of course, with the benefit of hindsight.

I remembered waiting anxiously for my ORD Date. Now that I'm "free", why do I still feel that something is lacking?

Haha, maybe I should go back to army...... maybe not.

2007-02-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, a gentle touch from a loved one is all you need to refresh your gloomy day.

A friendly pat on the back rekindles the friendship of past.

A sincere smile brightens up other people's day.

A fitting compliment boosts a person's confidence.

Letting people pass first in the walkway proves your graciousness.

But how many really do that? Caught up in the midst of daily hassles, eye contact are avoided. Weak smiles are flashed.

"It is my right of way". And so, I left the door slamming shut in the face of the other person. Doesnt matter. His eyes are studying the floor intently too.

Me. Me. I. I. the world only revolves around me. How many times have I forgotten that I am not the type who will isolate himself in his lonely world?

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I dunno why the hell did this post came up. ha hahahah

i'm not upset or what. just an observation. oh well, all my friends, take care! the next time you see me and I do not see you, you are given the permission to shake me out of my daydream...

2007-02-05T03:01:00.000+08:00

I realised that I have this ability to do many things at one time. Many other things except for the one with the top priority.

Yes, I believe most of us have this ability too. It is called procrastination.

Right now, I have just finished 1 out of 6 tutorial questions even though I was at my desk the whole Sunday. What was I doing then?

1) Reading online comic
2) Eating snacks
3) Listening to music
4) Absorbed in random musings
5) Checking the stock prices and the forums
6) Thinking of what to do for V-day
7) Opening drawers multiple times to test the soundness of their construction
8) Checking the mirror for any defects
9) Admiring my collection of music CDs and books
10) Admiring the bed that seemed so soft and comfortable
11) Thinking of going jogging, since it has been 2 weeks I last ran
12) Decided that walking to and fro the kitchen is also exercising, and began doing that at a regular rate
13) Opened the textbook and read the first paragraph
14) Repeated s/nos 1 to 13 in random order

Really, what a way to squander a beautiful weekend away...

2007-01-22T02:16:00.000+08:00

i am glad i finally stopped and faced the problem.

no more running away.

i'm ... relieved.

for far too long, i have let the tides of fate bring me to my next destination in life. How many times have i fought against it?

Most of the time, i am contented to let the waves bring me along.

I am glad that i am finally facing up to it.

I remembered a person writing this in his blog: I am the master of my destiny.

How true.

2007-01-17T01:49:00.000+08:00

it is 1.49am on a wed morning, and i am waking up 4 hours later to go to school.

yes, i am at home. yes, i have a hall too. wasting money? yes i am. haha haha

i just realised that i'm really out of shape. ya, i know i look slim and stuff, but looks can be deceiving. I ran to NEC from my hall, around 100m away. yeah, a few upslopes here and there, but i felt like i'm running a freaking marathon!!!

and my legs ACTUALLY feel sore now!!!!

NBCBKNN

hmmm, on a more serious note...

events this few days made me realise the importance of money. More specifically, the importance of having/earning your OWN money.

the freedom to do whatever you want

the freedom to splurge on whatever you want

the power you feel when u know u can afford it

of course, need to be sensible about spending right?

i wonder if i insist on spending more because i want to prove that i can afford it?

the male ego is sometimes a pain in the ass...

2006-12-26T01:48:00.000+08:00

i really hope yeow and co can forgive me man...

2006-12-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

I have been working since the day I finished my exams.

Not that I mind though. Otherwise, I will be bored by the third day after the exams.

Yeah, yeah, i hear your sniggles. Ha ha, it is really quite funny now that I think about it... taking care of "family business".... ha ha...

But I'm not complaining man. At least I can earn some money and learn new things.

Hmmm, maybe this holiday is a good time to meet up with long lost friends ...

but as most of you would predict, you can probably not see me at any club/pub wadever... haha, i'm still that fu@king guai and sibei boring guy you know in sec school....

i suppose once in a while is good ba... hmmmm, see how lor... i feel like i'm 31 instead of 21... what the hell am i doing man? hahahah

2006-11-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

Alright!! 2 exams in a day... finally over!!

well, not as bad as i feared... in the end both papers are do-able papers...

WHEW

biz law next... now's the time to start studying!!!!!!

i love studying, i am a geek, i love studying, i am a geek

haha i think i'm crazy liao...

hmmm looks like i'll be working during the holidays!! big big money!!! hahahaha

2006-11-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

i hate to post another depressing story ....

so....

hahahaha, 2 down, 3 more exams to go!

I LOVE discussing the accouting exam questions cos the discussion make me realise my mistakes and HOW MUCH MORE i can learn from it...

yup yup... positive ah... hahahahahha

2006-11-16T10:41:00.000+08:00

met a friend who's studying in australia yesterday...

still the same old him, the same old smile, the same old humour

still as cheerful, still as friendly, still as "kiam pa"

hahaha

exam status: 1 down, 4 more to go....

i wonder how is everyone doing now... oh well....

sometimes i really wonder if studying hard getting a good grade then a job is really the way to go..... even though i have been telling my brother that for the sake of his o levels... somehow i don't really seem to think this way!

true, a good degree is necessary, but does it really gurantee you your financial well-being?

i'm not satisfied, and am always looking for ways to earn more money. sadly, i was that close to signing up for something that i'll regret... i'm glad that i didnt... hmmm i wonder how is he doing now...

greed really drives pple to do stupid things. I know that firsthand. It is really a thin line between ambition and greed.

so will i settle to graduate with an accountancy degree and get a stable job?

or will i be doing something else?

i have no idea, cos all the exams are clouding my goal now...

"so, what have you achieved for your dreams?" the "kiam pa" kia asked

seriously, no concrete plan yet. I suppose talking is so much easier than doing it.

the first and the hardest step is to take action. How many of us are in a "ready, aim, aim, aim...." mode?

the time's not right, the opportunity is not good enough, the pple's not right, the capital's not ready, the market is not ripe, i am very busy, i am not ready....

FUCK MAN.

what do you think will happen after i finish this post? yup, i'll go back to my studies and probably hide this at the back of my head.

Not that studies are not important. It is very important. But what about your goals? are you cruising through life with no particular goal in mind?

Looking back at my 21 years of existence, I think so. The path so well trodden by countless people before me.

I think it is important to know what you are doing, to know what are your goals. Only then, can you be ever happy at what you are doing.

Sorry for the long winded and incoherent post.... seriously, i wonder who actually reads all this shit... why don't you tag me so that i know? =) haha

2006-11-11T10:10:00.000+08:00

You know you're fucked when

1) you're surfing the net for more "information" when you should be studying

2) you're blogging on a Sat morning in hall when you should be studying

3) you had a breakfast in hall that lasted 2 hours ("aiya, breakfast more important," i say)

4) 4 more days to the exams and i still "relax la, brother"

5) STILL TYPING ON THIS POST even after all that i typed in hope that the inner geek in me will wake up his blardy idea

ok, back to study.

Musings

2006-11-10T18:13:00.000+08:00

haha, my tutorial mates are real crazy...

it is really a waste that I didn't really spend alot of time with them... perhaps I was too absorbed in my world...

Really, relationships with people are so much more important... and yet money and studies always take precedence...

Without money, how can you be happy? how can you afford the things that will make u and your loved ones happy?

Without education, how can you survive in Singapore? how can you achieve the knowledge that will make you succeed in life?

WIthout relationships with other people, who can you share your wealth and success with?

the paradoxes of life...

2006-11-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

"If you don't have a car, you can never jio a girl."

is that really true? =)

haha, dunno la... i suppose i'm lucky lor

Exams, exams exams... how long has it been? 2 and a half years man... haha

how is everyone doing? frankly i'm not doing so well... i am always not focused... discipline has really been lacking these few weeks...

after the exams, a new challenge awaits!!

2006-10-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

what the hell happened to my tagboard??

aiya, screw it

the other day, she said "what has happened to your dreams? I don't see how you can achieve them with what you are doing now."

That really hit me in the face, between the eyes, on both my cheeks, right up the arse.

Really, what have I been doing?

Focus. Action. that is all I need.

Thank you.

2006-10-22T23:34:00.000+08:00

what a headache.

my night seems to be my day.

i really don't know what the hell am i doing.

i'm supposed to be a role model, yet i am doing all this shit.

fuck, can i ever get my priorities right?

can someone just destroy my computer? and tv? and comics?

you must do your best, it's not the time to play now!

the pot calling the kettle black.

2006-10-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

I went back to my hall after the meeting. I had wanted to pack my clothes and get the hell out of there.

But, something made me stay. As I was doodling on my book, I thought of what I have seen, done and heard this week.

People are so warped up in their own worlds that everyone else is still a passer by, even if he may be your class mate for the next few months!

Goals, visions, motivation... it is true, life is not as easy as it seems...

Pretty girls are everywhere, but there's only one who has always supported me all this time...

hey, they may wear shorter skirts, but you have a much bigger heart!

no worries, eyes on books and books only, not b@@bs...

hahahahhahahahahhahahaha

cheer up okie?

Buck up too bro... you seem to be slacking...

2006-10-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

Hai, spent the whole of Saturday sleeping due to fever.... kns...

but anyway even without the fever I'll probably still slack my time away ba.... haha

Well, my 2 tuitions have finally ended... hopefully they'll do well for their exams! Better not disappoint me!

Many project deadlines looming, lessons don't seem to end, exams is just round the corner, whatever aims that I planned in the previous few posts seem so distant, my procrastination keeps me from work, my laziness prevents me from studying, my fear stops me from even taking 1 step towards my goals....

Come to think of it. Could it be that because I have subconsciously linked my goals to that (sobering) experience, that's why I am even more reluctant to work towards it?

CANCEL. CANCEL.

My goals are mine. They will still exist regardless of that crap shit fuck up crap.

So, I really need to plan my goals now... really.... even though i have been saying that to myself for a week...

ok let's make a mini declaration here... perhaps this will let me really plan!

Things to do tonight:
Plan my main goals
Plan my mini goals until end of year

OOOOKKKKKKKIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE......

back to work!

sorry this post is really jumbled up, i'm just typing whatever that comes to my mind... btw i got the 1st edition of adam khoo's "i am gifted so are you" self help for 2 bucks.... quite an interesting read....

ok enuff crap.

2006-09-30T04:23:00.000+08:00

i must be crazy. why am i still playing when i should be doing my work?

i'm only left with sat and sun. what ever happened to my discipline?

i'm tired.

but it was a good nite though. st james power station is cool... i shld be considered really lucky to be able to get a sneak preview before the official opening ba....

sleep..

2006-09-29T11:13:00.000+08:00

i'm glad that i've made my decision.

even though the process was a hard one, now i really know that i have your support all the time.

however, i did learn some lessons.

my dreams are still intact.

there are many other opportunites to bridge that gap.

A high ambition is good, but please be rational.

Question. If the answers don't satisfy you. Look for another opportunity.

Warren Buffett has mentioned that he only invests in companies he knows about. Those that are too complex. he doesn't care.

I think that's really good advice.

I wonder if i have really understood the books that i read?

anyway, it has taken me a week to sort out my thoughts. Definitely time wasted, but it has been a learning experience.

my friend, if you are reading this, take a step back and look hard at the system.

All the best.

And, thank you dear =)

Personal Financing 101

2006-09-17T00:11:00.000+08:00

Passive income > total expenses

Once you achieve that, you can slap your boss' face, kick that backstabbing collegue's ass, burn down your office and STILL live your life without worries!!

Ok, i'm kidding about the violence and arson. Come on, we guys are civilised people right?

Today, I had the opportunity to play Cashflow 101 game. I find this tremendously useful. You are given an hour to play 40 YEARS of your life. You won't know how much time has passed until the game master annouced the time. Then, you'll be shocked when you look at your own balance sheet. My balance sheet at age 40 was really, shit.

So what did I learn? A few important lessons that I want to share with anyone who's reading this...

1. Opportunities are everywhere. It is up to you to find it.

2. What may appear as a money making venture can turn out to be your best investment. Again, it takes a trained mind to sniff out such gems.

3. Always be prepared for the next big opportunity. In the game, I lost a positive passive cash flow of 2,200 because I was not prepared and buying so-so investments.

4. Always be aware of your personal financial situation. This is your money, don't expect other people to take care of it.

5. Paychecks are just paychecks. Once you stop working, the checks stop coming. Work for passive income instead. Money should work for you, not the other way round.

6. Don't be afraid. Don't let the fear swallow your drive.

I really learn alot today. This workshop allows me to experience the game first hand. Thanks Ruide.

So, do you want to be rich?

If yes, then why?

The reason must be very personal to you. That reason must be able to sustain you throughout all obstacles. Have you found your reason?

I have.

I wish to let my parents rest. They have worked long enough. They have been in the rat race for too long. It really hurts to see them working day in day out just to put me and my brother to school.

I'm not complaining. I'm definitely luckier than other people. I don't live in poverty.I don't need to struggle to make ends meet. Heck, I know I can get more money from my dad if i asked!

I am truly blessed with such great and supportive parents. It is therefore my duty, and my obligation to provide for them. I dream of the day when I can tell my mum and dad," Enough. Stop working. Now, I am able to, and will provide for the family. "

That is my reason. Tell me, what is yours?

2006-09-14T02:28:00.000+08:00

Congrats to me! this is my 3rd entry today!

FUCK I RELI NEED TO SLEEP.

why is it that when studying, i will sleep, but when doing other stuff I can stay awake for hours!?!?

Ah, the paradox of zzzzz....

2006-09-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

Oh a more serious note...

I seem to have been caught up in this whirlwind of academic pursuits. Whatever happened to new friendship? whatever happened to the candidness among friends?

I seem to have become self absorbed. The world now seems to revolve around me.

When the core is unsettled, the whole world seems to collapse. What is left is a black hole. Hollowness. Emptiness.

I need to take a few steps back and look at my life in a different way.

The more you move on with your life, the more people you have to leave behind. Please, don't forget the people who always love you.

Please, don't lose track of your dreams.

Tell me, are you following the path to your dreams, stumbling, struggling, moving in darkness with only the light in front as your guide? what will you have accomplished? will you have liked this journey? filled with excitement, disappointment, setbacks, but immense rewards?

or are you walking on the well lit paved road, with everyone else walking with you?
what will you have accomplished? is security the number 1 concern for you? secure, safe, normal, conforming to the norm, but little rewards?

I really want to start on that exciting path to my dreams, but I always take the easy way out and walk on that paved road.

My dreams seem to be dying, but only I know that.

And only I can revive them!

Bring on the challenges, and let every failure be a lesson learnt.

(on a lighter note, i suppose my failure of my presentation constitutes a lesson too... wahahha)

2006-09-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

Now, when you give a presentation, of course you must be able to project your voice, be forceful and stern, be commanding and engage the audience.

If your audience are a company of recruits.

What I did today during my communications management fundamentals is a presentation that all platoon commanders in Tekong will want to emulate.

BUT I WAS PRACTICALLY SHOUTING AT MY TUTORIAL MATES!!

hahahahahhahahahhaa

Thinking back now, it was really hilarious.

Feedback from friend #1: Wah, I feel intimidated. You scare me man!

friend #2: You look like a loanshark!

friend #3: So loud for what!

friend #4: i thought you wanna eat us up!

hahahah, i should ask my tutor to give a thorough critique of my presentation skills. I just changed mode to "platoon commander" mode and thought that my audience were a bunch of recruits sitting in a huge lecture hall!!

hahahahhaha...... i'll probably never forget this.

and OF COURSE!

2006-09-10T02:00:00.000+08:00

My parents for sponsoring my BBQ! hahah... thanks a million!

To all my friends who came, I really appreciate it! I'm really touched that all of you turned up!

To those who send your wishes, thanks!

To those who owe me dinner/ presents... you guys better know what to do! haha

Thanks everyone, it was great seeing all of you again.....let's catch up with each other sometime!
Anyway, if you want any other photos, feel free to ask!

Special Thanks to.....

2006-09-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

Carlene... for ensuring all my friends have enough food... enough drinks... doing all the Sai Kang like clearing plates... hai.. i felt so guilty... thanks dear!
The man of the day... the tireless BBQ man = Joel! Thanks so much bro...
And also for helping me with the preparation of the bbq itself... Joel's the man! =)
Chiameng... Tag team partner with Joel at the BBQ pit... Thanks Thanks!

Photos 2

2006-09-10T01:42:00.000+08:00

Joanna, Eileen, Yihan... Thanks for being "Cake Distributors"!!
Hai ya... how come never switch on the FLASH!
OCS People and fellow honorary members...

photos....

2006-09-10T01:35:00.000+08:00

AHS NCC....Colin, Yeow, Soon Chong, Kenneth, Chong Hao, Joel, Siu, Guodong, Jiaming...
ONLY KELVIN NOT IN THE PICTURE..... HAha
Toogees... Haven't seen Rina for 4 YEARS! wah...
Climbers... Look at me now... Do I really look like one!? haha...

2006-09-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the homemade cake. It really shows that you care.

Thanks for accompanying her and making your way to my house.

You guys really make my day. =)

Love you dear... and believe me, the cake really tastes good!

2006-09-02T00:27:00.000+08:00

i looked around and found that everyone is busy.

Suddenly, I feel so lonely.

Happy birthday to me!

I want to achieve my goal by 30!!

2006-09-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

Yup, you can technically call me a Uncle now.

I'm 21.

It seems to me, that the closer you want to get to your dreams, the more people you have to leave behind.

When I look at my friends, how many of them are really my true friends?

I suppose, they have always been around. I was just too busy to notice them.

To slow down and smell the flowers? Or to dash forward and capture that fleeting dream?

What will you do?

I miss all my friends, whether they are close or not. After all, I have spent significant time with all of them. However, sad to say, friends come and go. Those true friends, will always remain around me. Hopefully, they will know that I am their true friend too!

21 years on this Earth, the journey has just begun! Enjoy it!

2006-08-28T09:57:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, you never know how much someone means to you until you are holding her hands.

Then, you begin to ask yourself why are you always being a fucking jerk.

Thanks dear.

2006-08-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

Perhaps I am so caught up with my new phase of life that I have made other people feel insignificant.

FUCK. I want to write all my feelings down, and yet these feelings are too personal for anyone else to know.

Oh well... anyway my birthday's coming up... 2nd sept... those that didnt reply better do so!!

2006-08-21T16:33:00.000+08:00

What will happen if you decide to stop working one day? will you have money to maintain your present standard of living?

How many months you can go on after you stop working can be defined as your wealth. Yes, wealth is actually your streams of passive income. Nothing else.

So who is truly wealthy? Those professionals with big paychecks but spend like there's no tomorrow? Or those mid level managers with sound financial education and have been building up their portfolios of passive income?

When do you want to be financially free? do you have any strategies in mind? or are you just following what your parents have been doing?

For me, my 21 years of life has been the ideal blueprint that my parents approve of. Go to primary school, be in EM2 at least, then a good secondary school, preferably special stream, then to a good JC, preferably triple science (Biology is good! you can be a doctor!) , then get a good course in uni, hopefully medicine or architecture or accountancy or engineering or business...

Do I have any say in that? No. Because the path that I took is the path my parents longed to have. They have my interests at heart when planning this path out for me.

Am I complaining? Of course not! This path, though similar to most of my peers, has led me to realise that, besides academic education, professional education and financial education are equally important.

I am now in NTU learning my skills, probably to be an accountant or banking related field. I am training to be an employee.

I am fine with being an employee, after that it is all about job security and yada yada right?

WRONG.

The "iron rice bowl" has been a thing of the past. We are now in the Information Age, not the Industrial Age. Information, relevant, useful and the lastest information, will secure your future. Your knowledge will be the beacon for your career. Financial know-how will free you from the confines of your office. Heck, you can quit the next day and still live like a KING!

That will be great right?

But are you prepared to pay the price? Are you willing to learn? Are you wiling to polish up your financial knowledge? Or are you more secure in basking in the false comfy feeling of job security? What makes you think your degree is enough?

For me, I still have a lot to learn. Life is a journey anyway.

But I will resolve to build up my professional education. Qualifying for double specialisation is my aim.

My second aim is to polish my financial education. I aim to have at least 2 streams of passive income when I graduate.

My last aim is equally as important as the above: to treasure my loved ones, and never take them for granted.

........

WOW I did talk alot man.... haha... ok go and makan, maybe return the fridge (sorry...) and then back to study!

I am A NERD!!!

wahahahhaha

My dreams

2006-08-14T11:23:00.000+08:00

Finally i'm a NTU student now! i know this sounds stupid, but i WAs really TOUCHED when i received my matriculation card!!

NAH.

HA hA

The truth is, I'm really lucky to be in NTU accountancy. The vice dean said that after my year of enrolment(in 2004 i think), the minimum grade is at least a 3 As!!

Oh man... better treasure my place here and study hard!

Do you guys believe that a good university degree will get you a good job? Do you want to work until you retire? How can you be rich even without working?

I must admit that I am influenced by wealth gurus like Warren Buffett, Peter Lynch, Robert Kiyosaki and even our very own Adam Khoo! I sincerely believe that beside working at a full time job, there are other ways to earn money too, like investing (NOT speculating), setting up your online business, real estate etc.

However, I have seen my Dad slog so hard for my family. His advice to me is: stuy hardm get a good degree, get a well paying job and stick to it. Learn to live below your means. Save money. Don't invest as it is risky. Being rich has alot of problems. It is not just my Dad who tells me that. Practically everyone I know and respect dishes out similiar advice from time to time. Their well-meaning advice has been ingrained in my mind, and I have (GASP!) even started to dislike richness!

How can I bear not to listen to my Dad's advice and see the look of disappointment and frustration in his eyes? How can I just shake off the financial conditioning of my upbringing and indirectly tell my elders that their money beliefs have been wrong all the while?

Definitely, a good degree is important. It surely makes your name card look impressive! However, I really wonder if I am able to work for 30 years, always looking forward to the next paycheck?

So, this is my resolution. In my 3 years in NTU, I will study hard to get a good degree, and I will make sure that I will create 2 streams of income by the time I graduate. Impossible? Very likely, but to quote from my JC, Passion creates Possibilities!

TAIWAN Pictures!

2006-05-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

OKIE!!! WOOOOO!!!

my first trial posting pictures.. hope it turn out alrite...

we saw sun xian zhi (from 5566) and Ai Sha (the cute cute Japan host) in Taiwan...

will be posting more pictures soon... i need to kun liao... tml got work...

TAIWAN!!!

2006-05-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

wow!! just back from a 5 day 4 nite taiwan trip... damn shiok!! i truly enjoyed myself there!

day1
touch down at taiwan and checked into East Dragon Hotel.

IMMEDIATELY rushed down to Ximenting... a little disappointed as the things are not cheap ( around the prices at Far East Plaza)

Went down to Shilin Market by MRT. now THAT's the place to SHOP and EAT!! haha... 香鸡排，大饼包小饼, mango ice, HUGE hot dogs, oyster mee sua, fried squid, smelly toufu, normal toufu, grilled corn....

WAH!!!!!!! shiok ah... i think i put on 3 kg overall... haha.... ok i need some sleep now... let me figure out how to post pictures first den i continue! (ya la i lousy la... so what? =p)

2006-05-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

wa lau..... why the hell did i shoot myself in the foot???? why am i so stupid!?!?!??!

i'm so sorry... i didnt mean to lie to you...

HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2006-04-29T02:56:00.000+08:00

yo!!!

to that 1 or 2 pple who happen to read my blog... watch this video...

HARD GAY

HAHA SUPER FUNNY LA!

oops...

2006-04-23T02:07:00.000+08:00

come to think of it... i think i looked rather pissed this afternoon... hope no one is offended... giving out flyers is detrimental to your mental health!

glad that the ncc guys had a gathering today.... edwin turns 21 today!! haha... glad that we can celebrate it for him...

so many pple make so many random comments .... some r not very nice... sounds like it cannot be done... i WILL!!!!! wahahahahhahahaha!

oh well.... better do some damage control for my black face today... and also to work smart... and turn on the charm!! haha

New JOB!

2006-04-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

Everytime someone ask me what am I doing now, I always contemplate what to tell them. Reason?

A typical conversation
friend: so, what are you doing now?

me: oh, i'm working...

friend: really? what do you do?

me: oh, i call up people and sell my courses to them...

friend (suddenly become very scared): OOHH, issit MLM???
inches away from me...

me: NO LA .... it is.....

then i will explain... haiz... it's quite funny sometimes... lol ... it's true that MLM do not have a very good image to begin with, thus it is natural for people to be suspicious...

THEREFORE

don't be afraid of me my friends! i'm not doing MLM!!

i'm actually selling courses to kindergarten teachers or potential ones. As you may know, kindergarten teachers need to have a certificate or diploma to be able to teach. I provide such courses... In addition, the courses will be funded up to 90% if they meet a certain criteria...

if you're interested to know more you sms me (for those who have m hp no) or you can tag me...

so if anyone of you knows someone who will be interested in taking up a course for preschool teaching ( cert or diploma), do tag or sms me okie? successful referrals(meaning those referred whose aplication is approved and payment is made) will get a cut from my own commission...

trust me... your cut (which can at least buy you and your partner dinner at Marche) can be easily earned! ;)

alrite... actually putting this in my blog is not a very clever thing to do... since there aren't many pple who even know i have a blog... haha... anyway just in case...

random thoughts...

2006-04-15T13:27:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I played basketball, and boy do I suck at it... haha!

sorry joel, i really want to go to the gym but I'm quite tired ah.. haha lao liao!

clearing leave can be so.... SHUANG!!!! WAHAHAHHA, but that is nothing compared to those pple who have ORDed. ya, you can shut up. =p

one more duty to go, 1 more medical to go, 1 more clearance to go.... seems so so so far..............

hopefully i can see results in my work sometime this month... otherwise i'll have to jiak hong for my taiwan trip liao... anyone wanna buy anything? i can get it for you if i saw it... no pRon pls... lol

2006-04-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

I felt so guilty and yet so touched. I really think I have been a bloody f@cker... please do forgive me...

Guodong's bdae party!

2006-04-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

wow... it has been quite some time when i am able to laugh so heartily... lol

whenever there is a birthday party, the birthday boy will definitely suffer at our hands. Especially since Guo Dong is turning 21 today, all the more he has to be given the treatment. After all, he is known as Colin's whipping boy, right Colin? haha

anyway, after the birthday formalities, the real action took place in the bedroom. the video was even taken!! ha.... we pounced on him and ripped out his underwear. Literally. He did not put up too much of a struggle. Hopefully his ass is alright, i remembered when they did that to me and my ass crack hurts for a few days...

it is really nice seeing the ncc pple again: Mr Seah(my teacher whom i really respect), kelvin (as slack as ever =) ), colin (his usual crazy self), siu (stil as.. cute and cynical), yeow ( his brand of dry humour always amuse me), liang (just as spontaneous as i last saw him), kenneth (calm, cool, collected and running a business!), soon chong ( anime crazy and my trusty taipei advisor), pok (ns police inspector turned power boyfriend blessed with infectious laughter)and of cos the birthday boy ( one everyone likes to bully , and the only guy so far without any temper)...

let's have more gatherings man...

well.... back to bedok camp tml... it will be my last day there... will anyone care? i really do not know... while i act nonchalant about it... but i really hope my men and my sergeants will remember me as a good pc and not hate my guts. Have I done a good job? I certainly hope so... but i suppose it is up to them to decide...

so near, yet so far...

2006-03-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

it's very funny. When you're in it for so long, you don't even realise that you're going to leave it someday. Only when the people around you start leaving, then you realise that it is time for you to go too.

what am I referring to? army of course!

this month, most of my friends have already ORD. what the heck man!!! the wait for my ord date seem so far away!!! how can 2 months seem so torturous???

well, another 2 weeks and i'll be leaving 1gds... quite sad actually... i like it in 1 gds... however what disapoints me is that some of the commanders ultimately treat us as... outsiders. sad, but it's true. they made me realise i do not belong there.

i had wanted to talk to them so many times, but i suppose they won't listen anyway. their mindset is fixed, how can someone from another unit change them? it's true when they say that men are easy to control, it is your commanders who are challenging...

it's quite sad to see my commanders adopting a 'bare minimum' attitude... i really empathise with my platoon sergeant and the future pc... good luck to them!

2 more weeks left, yet so much work to do... how can i clear my leave in peace!?!? even getting a half day off seem so hard...

thanks to anyone who bother to read my rantings.. haha

to the one who is always supporting me, good luck for your exams!! haha... jia you!

2006-01-30T15:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm it has been 2 weeks since i've blogged... so what has happened in my life?

well, I got my birthday present 8 months earlier! haha... i reli like it alot... but i didnt expect her to buy it for me... where the hell did she get so much money anyway? but i reli appreciate it anyway... =)

went thru the monotonous drill of BMT, but the CNY celebrations were surprisingly fun... those usual guy become girl, those lame army jokes... quite funny... but the lousy thing is i have to do duty la... super sian... i only handed over duty on cny eve 1030.... wa lau...

but the guy who took over me is even worse... he's a chinese la... feel quite sorry for him... there's also another poor guy who have to do duty on cny 2nd day... even worse... heng all the pc nv kana ....

sometimes i wonder how come they are not flexible enough to get other non-chinese officers from the sister unit to help with the duty... hmmm.... or allow the bdo to be out of camp but to be on standby at all times... allow those chinese duty personnel more flexibility too...welfare for commanders also wad....

anyway, still got 1 more day of visiting to go but my hongbao collection issnt very impressive... haha nbm la...

2 more weeks till she turns 21...headache ah... but preparations are underway!! hopefully can get everything done on time! hopefully she'll like what I'm getting for her...

New Year...

2006-01-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

Well, year 2005 has come and gone... now year 2006 will hopefully bring all of us a great year ahead!

Anyway I got something toannouce.... I hope whoever is reading will take what I say seriously...

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

FIRST TIME HOR.... DUN PRAY PRAY!!! hee hee

Now I am officially licensed to drive on the road.... hahaha FINALLY!!!

actually while getting a driving license is a great thing, this is only the beginning. Frankly speaking, I have no idea how to park if there are no 4 poles for me to align to. Haha...

Anyway I'll definitely be having a lot of practices... So if I suddnly call you after 5 years of ignoring you, it's not because I'm into MLM, but because I wanna borrow YOUR car hahahahhaha...

Great start to the new year.... Hopefully everything will go smoothly for me this year...

All the best to all my frenz! hope you have a great year too!!

random thoughts...

2005-12-15T01:30:00.000+08:00

Night off, Driving lesson No. 12, 2 more weeks to my driving test... HAI

At home, staying up so late, just to enjoy my freedom...

so many things to do, so little time...

WHY MUZ YOU GO SO FAR AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha .....

wonder how is everyone else OUTSIDE of army doing.... suddenly got those kind of ORD mood... just wanna heck care and play and play...

but i've got a job to do....

anyone up for supper? ANYONE!?!?!?

hai... what am i talking about? the only one who bothers to read is holidaying ....

HAI. back to work. Lights out timing: 0200. Reveille: 0600.

Sian.

bedok cmap

2005-12-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

wow it has been more than a month since i updated my blog...

*blows dust off my blog*

oh well... i've been busy.... and a tiny bit lazy la... haha...
anyway whatever i write here i think only one person will see it anyway... and she has gone for a 2 week holiday!!!

*sigh*

never mind... anyway i'm attached to bedok camp now... in guards... the place's rundown but the logistics side is trying their best to equip the camp asap... so kudos to them for that...

my ps seems like a very nice person... and so all the section commanders... hopefully i'll get to know them better as time goes by...

truthfully i'm quite excited about the new recruits.... it'll be a fresh challenge....

so what do i do during my free time? driving lessons lor... test is in 1 month's time... wish me luck!!

someone told me before she left: dun go and anyhow meet up with girls ah!!

hai... she knew what i was planning right from the start =)

no la... i'll never break her heart....

when i next book out, i'll update my blog again... HOPEFULLY...

whew....

2005-11-03T11:34:00.000+08:00

well, someone has been breathing down my neck for not updating my blog... so well... actually i think only she reads my blog lor... so actually makes no differenece wad! i can juz tell her what's happening right? instead of posting it on a blog?

"THEN YOU HAVE THIS BLOG FOR WHAT!!!"

case closed.

well, this month's has been rather interesting for me. clocked over 90 hours of gameplay at FFX, spent half of my day sleeping, watching anime, meeting my gf.... basically just enjoying the time to slack during my lull period.

then i went back to work. suddenly, admin instructions, briefings, screaming at recruits seem so routine now. though they are pes c, so we cant reli do anything to them either. the challenge now is how i respond to all their medical conditions... hai... becoming a full time doctor liao....

okie later... gotta meet my dear liao....

Phuket trip!

2005-09-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

well, Phuket was so much more fun than expected. Though there are only a few of us, we still had a lot more fun... thinking back, it wasnt such a bad idea after all to travel in a smaller group.... in this way we can go everywhere as a group and not be faced with people not wanting to go somewhere or whatever....

I must say that i felt guilty about indirectly forcing them to go for the sa package. hahaha, i reli have absolutely no idea that they felt forced to go for the package because of me.... hai... i'm glad that they enjoyed themselves...
to quote one of them : this is the first time that i'm being forced to do something and i like it....

hahahhahahahahhaha

but sometimes i do forget about my position though.... sorry guys...

now tml and the day after is atp....

just when i was about to sleep... the image of the zeroing tool and the pincer flashed in front of my eyes.

I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank god my armskote spec is able to conjure out pincers for me... heng ah...

for whoever is reading my blog and wondering what i'm blabbering about (not many of you who know of this blog anyway)...

zeroing is something that MUST be done before a shooter can shoot ACCURATELY with his rifle. to zero a weapon, you'll need a zeroing tool or pincer. Got it?

whew. 9pm book in... feels like a recruit all over again hahahah

i pray that everything will go smoothly on both days.... HAI

hai

2005-09-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

my dear went to phuket this morning... i wasnt able to send her off as i have to go for some army exhibition... which is almost like the ndp carnival at marina bay!!

talk about wasting my time...

and even worse... now the so called cohesion trip only got 10... TEN people going... including mr lee, oc and his wife... i mean... WTF rite??? isnt it supposed to be a cohesion trip???? damn it man... and to think we can use this trip to build up our cohesiveness and stuff... HAI...

but the worst thing is... i actually gave up going to phuket with dear so that i can go on this cohesion trip.. KNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i think about it also super dumb lor... HAI HAI HAI....

well at least i can meet her there on sat nite....
tml sdo... hope nothing cock up...

enlistment duty...

2005-09-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

well today finished understudy for enlistment duty... overall can la juz that it's vv boring... tml i'll be the oic... hope i dun cock things up... and on monday i'm oic for canteen... haiiiiiii .. and still muz do my AI for atp... i suddenly feel like a fig 11 target board....

today i had this unpleasant experience that made my blood boil. seriously, at that instant, i was so angry that i just couldnt speak. well... at tft i was there on time to catch the ferry... so when i scan my card... the machine doesnt respond (prob it has been resetted for the next ferry0. so the ferry operator told me to wait for the next boat.

Well, the ferry is just there. didnt even leave yet. the person in front of me was only like 50m away. so obviously he's just being a lazy ass and dun wanna let me in. so i plead with him. can i take this boat? can i take this boat? i repeated a few times earnestly (sounds like a kid who wants a toy badly hor) cos i have a appointment later and might be late if i miss the fastcraft.

in the end, he (wrong , the f!!ker) said: NO. TAKE THE NEXT BOAT. SIT DOWN. and pointed at one of the seats.

I REALLY WANNA TEAR OFF HIS COCK AND SHOVE IT UP HIS ASS. AND RIP OFF HIS BALLS AND STUFF THEM DOWN HIS THROAT.

bloody d@ckhead.

anyway, i'm not angry anymore. i realised that such people are reli beneath me. there's no need to get angry over such trival things. one muz learn to forgive and forget.

but mabbe i'll just shoot an email down just for the heck of it. (nah just kidding...)

sometimes i really wonder how come there are some inconsiderate, cold, pig headed, inflexible and myopic people around. they are the culprits who exemplify the ugly singaporean. hai

go to sleep. tml wake up another long day. hope everything goes smoothly tml. hmmm muz remember to draw key for canteen and batt for mic tml for monday's duty.

miss you man...

condolences...

2005-09-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

a terrible thing has happened in the US. may God watch over the victims. may President Bush wake up his idea and send more help to them.

HAI seriously i can never comprehend how an airplane can just crash even before it climbs to higher altitudes. is money so important that safety is compromised?

these few weeks have not been a very good week for the global community... let's hope that the natural and manmade disasters will come to an end.

off day...

2005-09-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

do you know that you can play game unil your hand cramp up?

mine did.... hahahahhaha.....

well... now i only left with 5 bucks... my posb account got 10 dollars cannot draw out... ocbc account frozen up due to lost atm card.... EVEN if i wanna top up my ezlink card also not enough....

feel like a pauper leh.....

speaking of which, i think i'm gonna have a financia crisis when i ord... where the hell do i get extra money?????? looks like i have to give tuition and blah blah blah liao.... oh well....

hmmm hand is back to normal... back to the game.. =)

happy bdae to me!

2005-09-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

well... here i am... stuck in tekong... spending my birthday here... on this island... typing on this com... sounds pathetic?

well actually i'm reli fine with it la.... cos i really had a damn good weekend last week...so no complaints!

haha... and i'm gonna get my component or s video cable when i book out... as a small present to myself ba... and mabbe some games too... haha for my beloved brother.... i think he dun even know i have a blog lor hahahhaha

hmmm......... come to think of it... haven been a good brother... =[ hai...

the BEST time of my life!!

2005-09-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

well, i'm sure most of you will have known that my girlfriend has now become the perfect girlfriend for other people to emulate....

in summary, she put in so much effort to throw a surprise bbq cum chalet for me even though she's studying and worrying about her sis who's sick....

i'm damn touched... f!!king touched....... hai how to find some1 like her?

join tj climbing club lor... hahhaha

thanks alot for that surprise bbq dear... =)

thanks to all my frenz who are in cahoots with my gf... i'm vv vv happy that all of you came down that day....

FINALLY A NEW POSt!!

2005-08-14T01:13:00.000+08:00

hahahahah.... well... been awol from blogging for a month liao... actually i was thinking of shutting down my blog.... but well.... after hearing what FAt said... he's rite la... i shld juz continue...

well... today went for ahs ncc gathering.... pretty cool as all the batches from the 96 batch to the present part d batch were here... wah... i think mr seah muz have put in alot alot of effort... kinda missed him man... but i'm glad that he's doing okie... (though he has put on some weight)

it was reli nice seeing the rest of my ahs ncc buddies... though our lives have drifted apart... you guys will still have a special place in my heart.... yeah i know it's mushy and so unbecoming of a guy... but hey! i dun give a shit =p

got my contacts today... well i picked up a trivia fact: do you know that among the opticians, there exist a person who actually spent 3 (THREE) HOURS putting on his/her contact lenses for the 1st time!! hahahaha.... (NO it's not me...)

next few weeks gonna be hectic... hai...............

wake me up... when september ends....=p

2005-07-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

hai.... how suay can a person be?

my birthday falls on my 24km route march... how to take off?!?!?! hhhaaaaiiiiiiii

the next week will be their field camp... hahaha tekan like siao!

some of the pl1 guys were caught playing soccer... this is the first time i'm so angry that i lost my rationale.... whew i think they see my face also scared ah... reli leh... i can feel my heart beating furiously.... i think even one of my sergeants was scared... hahahha

anyway, they got one of my commanders in trouble la... so they're confined til tml... sigh ... their last weekend before field camp and still do this kind of stupid thing....

one of my commanders (who's gonna ord soon) asked me : sir you don't go chong one ah? how come so guai?

hmmm... how do i answer him? muz i go chong to blend in with the in crowd? it's our personl preference wad... i dont like going there cos it wastes my money, my time and can sometimes stir shit wad... (ie i get too drunk and start to tackle any person with breasts)...

den i'll probably die a more horrible death... lol

but seriously, i dun mind going once in a blue moon la... but every 2 weeks or so den go... wa you dun feel tired meh?

hmmm maybe my life has always been a eventful journey... my life cannot twist and turn unexpectedly... i cant stand it when such things happen and i cant control it... everything must go smoothly as expected...

yup... i'm lidat... but i'm trying to change... realised that life's alot more than just a script... we hold the crayons and our life is a blank canvas for us to doodle on....every meaningful thing we do will result in an even more beautiful picture...

sunday morning...

2005-07-17T08:06:00.000+08:00

it's 8am on a sunday morning.... just spent my sat afternoon with my dear and had a quarrel about an issue that we always kbkp about... but in the end... everything's nice and happy and everyone lived happily after la... haha

well... these few months i'm gonna be broke...

july there's joann's bdae... dun even think i can book out wor... sorry man...so i wish you happy bdae first ah

august my dad's bdae... i think i'll treat him to a karaoke session ba...

september is MY bdae....

and my brother's bdae... he wants a k750i leh.... haiz

and tammy's bdae...

sigh.... how to save money lidat?

mabbe i shld become the nkf ceo ah...

hmmmm... the feeling when you look at a person you love sleeping is so....nice...=)

next two weeks gonna be field camp soon........ sian ah.....................................

run run away ya...

2005-07-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

wa lau... i never felt so unfit in my life!

today went to run with the recruits.. thought it will be a breeze... turns out that they're improving faster then expected... though i'm very happy for them.. it also means that i muz go train harder liao... the last 2 weeks i haven been training... haiyo slack liao slack liao...

so to get my IPPT GOLD!?!?!?

200 leh... try la try la...

well mabbe this weekend i'll finally move into my new room and tidy up abit... mabbe that will give me some motivation to go and buy my hi fi... but hor the dinner already cost me 120...

i dun understand why nsf muz go for such dinners... no point what we'll just eat and go... leave the mingling to the regulars...

principles....

2005-07-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

principles are the moral values that you hold true to yourself... in every decision you make... it will be guided by your principles... i sincerely hope that all my decisions made follow my principles... but i know that sometimes it may not be so...

as we grow older, we may find that the world is forcing us to put aside our principles for the sake of convenience. is it reli viable? will you feel happy? mabbe in the short term it helps... but in the long term you will find yourself lost... lost in the world where everybody else is trying to take advantage of each other.. where everybody else tries to backstab each other...

must we reli resort to that? i feel that as long as you have this set of personal principles in you... your inner core which will never change... i strongly believe that whatever decisions you make... you will not regret them... nobody can find fault with you... even if they do... you yourself know that you have upheld your own integrity and your own principles...

for now... i'm still struggling to adhere to my principles...

story

2005-07-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

well.... rather long nv blog liao...

today kana arrowed for scolding session by higher hq...

for wad? why muz you do that for? juz because YOUR boss screw you upside down? come on la... can you stop thinking you're so mighty and invincible? well i understand that mabbe your job's at stake but still, i'm sure you should have some common sense and integrity right?

do you reli feel so good that you're able to use your rank to impose your views on me, that is i've done something wrong and you're gracious enough to forgive me?

fuck you.

first of all, we have been doing the same thing since dunno when. no one pointed out that we should go down personally to check. second, what's the big deal about sending this first before the other shit? what exactly is the big deal? cos that'll give you a call from EVEN higher hq that'll promise to squeeze your balls?

i'm damn sure i abide by my own principles and i have ensured that everything within my tour of duty is taken care of.

sometimes, the way this place works is reli..... inbearable. but i dun care. i pity you though. i wonder if you're reli worth your rank. anyway, i may be wrong.

just my moment of anger.

back to camp. tml cdo. MABBE there will reli be someone checking on 5bx. hahhahaha

miss you babe.... it's great to see you.... especially since my weekend is like just 12 hours... but okie la treasure the time more hee....

third time!!!!!!!!!!

2005-07-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

basket this is the third time blogging cos of the stupid server... TMD!!!

anyway... thanks kelvin for tahing my lesson today... didnt know that i muz conduct the lesson today... hai... thanks 2ic!!!

gonna refurish my room with tv and hi fi!!! yeay!!

my dear's going taiwan tml... hope she'll enjoy her time there... i think she will la... taiwan's a great place to shop and eat!! haha asked her to help me buy some comics...

well... sourcing for my tv and hi fi now.... any recommendations?
tv : $400 (29") tcl i think got...
hi fi: $500 to 600... hai a denon one cost 1k... so i guess that's out of qtn... mabbe a pioneer one lor or philips... or yamaha... aiya...

2005-07-01T13:27:00.000+08:00

wa lau, just now i just innocently told my dad that i'm having foot rot... den he suddenly come up with a super sure work plan on treating it. Try it at your own risk.

step 1: get some rice wine, slather over white paper and use it to cover the affected area.

step 2: drip ooil over a rolled up newspaper and light it. (Not KIDDING!)

step 3: use the flaming newspaper and whack at the affected area. (I'M NOT BLUFFING! I RELI KANA THIS!!)

note: obviously, you'll feel heat on ur foot...

step 4: repeat steps 1 to 3 for the other foot.

well, they say that my foot looked better. to me, they looked the same, only smarting a little from the flames.

oh well, at least the itching stopped.

back to camp, tml is saf day...

take care my friend...

2005-06-30T22:38:00.000+08:00

one of my bmt friends just passed away.

you never realise how fragile a life can be until it happens when you least expected it.

my condolences to his family, relatives and loved ones.

it's reli a pity, he has a bright future ahead of him.... sometimes, life's so unpredictable...

guys and gals, please treasure the people you love and don't take them for granted....

dear God, please look after him...

going back camp liao lo...

2005-06-26T16:00:00.000+08:00

almost 1am, and i'm online...

sometimes, civilian life is so much fun and free that i just dun feel like wasting any of that time away... but i need to sleep soon... i got to get the 1st ferry tml or else...

just watched "series of unfortunate event' with my dear... quite a nice show surprisingly... haha... okie i'll be honest: i thought that it would be a bad show alrite?

she's not feeling very well these 2 days.... hope she'll recover after a good night's rest...

now then i realise that people are not as simple as they seem... most of the time they can be cursing and swearing at you in their hearts and still smile and joke and laugh with you.... well i dun give a shit about what you think man... i know i'm in the wrong and i've apoplogised... i'll always be sorry for that but please dun get other people involved and hate them too... they're innocent and should not be subjected to your criticism, even thought you dun have any right to do so.

can't we just live in a world where there is no hidden agenda and feelings? why can't we be naive once again and live in the picture perfect world when we were young?

sometimes growing up isn't such a good thing, but i believe that it will make me stronger....

okie eyelids are weighing at least 1 ton now... good nite everyone... it's back to my extended family of 49 members tomorrow....

i'm so dead...

2005-06-25T05:49:00.000+08:00

well, it's 6am now... so what am i doing online at 6am on a saturday morning? HAI

i'm such a pig.... how can i just fall asleep and leave everyone hanging there, wondering where i am? the worst thing is, i couldnt be there for her when she needs me... what the hell... how coem this kinda thing always happen to me one.. mabbe i'm a pig in my previous life... hah

so how can i gonna appease my highness? AARRRGGGHHHH!!! i'm done for...

FINALLY OUT!!

2005-06-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

well guys, i'm finally out!! yup yup... if you guys dunno, i'm also confined with the recruits ... they booked out last nite, but the commanders have a life run and seminar and happy hour today... so yup now finally all is over!! my precious weekend....

anyway during the life run, was thinking some random thoughts and comments and fantasies...

Scenario 1:

there was this sergeant who has this cocky attitude. while i was doing duty he was attitude to the max... seriously, i've nv loathe a guy that i've never seen before man... so during the run he was in front of me...

me: hey d!@khead! you reli think you're so good at running? eat this!!!

ran past him leaving him eating dust and smelling my fart...

of cus, that's a fantasy... the fact is that he is in front of me all the way... oh well.... bleah

2005-06-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

once there are 2 identical cows in 2 identical caves. One day, a wolf came and ate the cow on the left. WHY!????

cos the cow on the left is super sway..... lol

okie okie... well today had a lecture cum admonishing session by our CO. he's not pleased with the incidents that happened recently and made sure that we understood his tough stance on negligent commanders.

It certainly woke most of us up. truthfully, sometimes we just go through motion and treat recruits indifferently. whatever happened to the professionalism that commanders should possess? while i do not think of myself as 100% professional, i always try to make sure i'm professional enough during my duty. sometimes, our complancency can cause injury to our recruits. a lesson well learnt.

everyday is a new day to learn.

discipline, team spirit, positive attitude...
these few days have been quite boring. feel like taking night off someday. hee den can spend some time with some beloved gal...

sir i not feeling well...

2005-06-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

nowadays if anyone tells me that, my heart will skip a few beats. when such emphasis being placed on the tagging of recruits with injuries/ status, nowadays i think that the focus of bmt has shifted to safety at all cost.

i agree that such measures taken are very good and should be implemented. however, i think that this system in its infancy is causing some administrative chores now. i believe that every recruit should be tagged if he has status, perhaps a computerised method of doing so will be a good idea?

just my 2 cents...

okie back to more light hearted topics...

arrrgh i wanna go overseas suddenly... haha one of the lao jiao sect com going to disrupt tml... how i envy him man...anyway...

i got a new phone! k750i... and i dropped it during 24km route march.. wad a cock...
my heart froze and my balls dropped when the phone slipped out of my hand... now there's a small dent on the side... hai heart break leh...

bought it before its official launch @ 490 2 yr plan singtel... after trade in of n6610 @ 200 bucks! haha... i'm lucky la.. but now the price all dropping liao... hia nbm buy liao den forget it lor...

random thought of the day: actually it's okie to have a good working relationship... not everybody will be your friend... as long as we can work well together... i suppose it's okie la...

seriously being an officer now... i kinda missed my frenz in ocs tj ahs... hai

2005-06-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

today i went for night off.

quite a number of people gave remarks and expressions that seem to tell me that i shldnt go for night off.

oh well.... i suppose i will be like this if i'm not booking out... hee

but i kinda pity my recruits though... 3 weeks confinement... hai

anyway, my night off is well worth it... haha finally got to spend some time with her...

50 guys under me.... 50 names to remember... i'm like so dead... i'm not good with names man... hai ... booking in 2330 tonite... which means i only have 15 min more........ let me guess... when i book in, they'll ask me "eh got buy any food?"

me: no

them: wa lau... !@#$%^

haha... routine liao.... tml got boss's address... hope nothing cock up cos i'm do!!

okie must go liao... hmm this post's rather mundane hor... aiya wadever la this week dun think can book out liao cos sat i kana duty... sian... sometimes i just lost sight of my purpose here... how? officer wad... everything also muz be professional rite? lead by example...

i truly believe in that.. but can you please cut us some slack? i'm human too... can you please let me make mistakes without critizing me? looks like my self worth must reli be there for me to survive....

aiya balls la i'm toking cock .... blur liao haha