I screwed up my Stats paper.

Ok for Accounting 2.

So-so for OB.

Should be OK for Biobiz.

Prediction:
Stats: C
Accounting 2: B

(Carlene here. nm lah, nm lah, nm lah. My paper in half an hour...doom...)


Sorry for the interruption.

OB: B

Biobiz: B+

Hopefully I am proven wrong in a positive way.

oh well. HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

I received a THIRD letter from the Health Promotion Board. OH my GOD. Let me review its contents:

National Behavioural Surveillance Survey on Sexually Transmitted Diseases (STDs), HIV and AIDS

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Hmm, ok, not so bad. It is a nation-wide survey and I have taken part in it. This is what caught my eye:

"For those who have taken part in the survey....... We would greatly appreciate if you can collect your vouchers or tokens of appreciations as an incentive for your effort."

I kid you not. The above statement is in BOLD.

Ha ha ha, this is the first time I received a letter practically forcing me to collect a token of appreciation.

They did set up a booth in NTU for us to collect the vouchers/token but it just slipped off my mind. Anyway, one cannot collect the voucher if you cannot produce the acknowledgement slip at the end of the survey. I lost it. And I'm not going through another 30min just to print that acknowledgement slip. Can't you guys just donate my voucher to the needy? Or donate the token (i suspect is a birth control contraceptive) to the lusty lechers in Geylang?

Aiyo, I hope they don't haul me down to Health Promotion Board to force feed the voucher down my throat. Really la, I cannot produce the stupid acknowledgement slip! I just do it for free, can???

ha ha, what an amusing letter.

Oh well, back to study.

3.30am.

Only covered 3 lectures. 9 more to go.

Thought of many things, but decided to stuff them down my throat.

Sleep. Wake up tml to study.

Complete waste of the nite, not productive at all.

If you guys will excuse my language, FUCK.

Good Nite!

I didn't feel so good after today's paper. Let me hope for the best.

Holidays are coming! Do I work for the experience, or work for the money?

Won't it be marvellous if I have both? ha ha

Let's see how my interview goes on Friday...

I always looked at myself in the mirror and confident that my physique is still there.

One day, one of my seniors saw me in hall and commented.

"hey say wei! you're fat!"

The world came tumbling down, and the whole sky turned black.

Torrents of rain pelted at me, mocking at my dismal expression.

That night, I made up my mind to run 100 times a week and hit the gym 2000 times a week and lift 100000kg of weights everyday!

The next day, I was stuffing crackers down my throat and patting my stomach contentedly.

Ha ha, fuck the exercise.

i have great plans for the weekend, intending to utilise every minute of it catching up with my homework. Alas, once at home, my laziness creeps in and wasted a beautiful Saturday away!

I admire those people with discipline to be up to date with their work. I think that it has become such a addictive habit for me to "relax" over the weekend that I just can''t seem to break the momentum. Humans are creatures of habit, and it is really hard for me to embrace change.

Goals set, but put aside. Statements made, but left forgotten. How I wish I can alter my brainwaves to focus on the important and essential things, and not read comics, take afternoon naps, watch anime, surf the internet and blog!

well, i'll probably have more time to blog after the exams... OH SHIT EXAMS!!

hai!

I was taking a break from the accounting tutorial just now, and started day dreaming.

I dreamt of a really funny incident.

I was 19 years old then, a freshly minted officer barely 2 months old in my new unit. I went to the army market in Lavender to get some "barang barang" for the upcoming field camp. I remembered vivdly asking the Indian shopkeeper, "Uncle, snake powder how much?". I can't remember the price, but whatever the price is, I told him that it is too high and quoted him a lower price.

In the army market, it is well known that you should bargain so as to get the best bang out of your NSF allowance. Being a sucker for tradition, I bargained with the Uncle too.

The Uncle, however, is a seasoned shopkeeper, AKA lao jiao, who doesn't take kindly to kids bargaining. He pointed to another stall and told me with a very straight face," Boy, that shop much cheaper. Go there la!"

Being the naive 19 year old that I was, I thanked the Uncle and approached that shop. A query for the price of the snake powder turned my cheerfulness into shock, shame and anger. The price was at least 50% higher than Uncle's!

I spun around and saw the Uncle laughing, gesturing to his colleagues and pointing at me. Obviously, this damn fuck here was the butt of his joke.

Now, that I think about it, it was really funny. However, at that point of time, I would admit that it really affected me. I was naive, unbelievably naive and believed that all people are saints. I trusted every word they say as I think they have no reason to lie to me. When I was young, the adults say that honesty is the best policy. If you want people to trust you, you must trust them. and all the ya da ya da. Unfortunately, I must have forgotten to read the fine print. I was that gullible.

3 years later, I am probably the most naive person around at age 22. yeah, of course I don't believe ridiculous crap, but well, it is probably easier to make me fall for a lie than (insert your most far fetched goal here).

I really hope that there are no hidden agendas when people are talking to you. I want to believe that all people are sincere and really want to know you better. I want to believe that they want to know me because I am a interesting friend, not because I have 1 million bucks or because I know this hot girl that you desperately want to fuck.

But who am I to complain when I am guilty of having a hidden agenda too?

Someone once said that he will want to remain as a 19 year old kid forever, because adults have too many problems.

Sometimes, I really agree with him.

Oh well, perhaps I am being too cynical here. Of course, there are many friends around me who are nice, interesting people. I really want to look at this world without tinted goggles. Can I talk to the real person inside of you and not your fucking mask?

Oh dear, I better stop swearing. Come to think of this, what triggered this off anyway? hmmmmmmmm...... oh well.... time to chiong my accounting tutorial!

1 of my friends from the army gave me a testimonial (friendster... is it still the trend now?? haha)

a short, simple one. Yet it brought back so many memories. Tekong rambutans are the best that I have eaten. So are the durians!

1 of my former recruit gave me a testimonial too.

2 sentences long, and it made my day (or night).

I looked through the photos taken in those 2 years, it really seem so fun and exciting. Of course, with the benefit of hindsight.

I remembered waiting anxiously for my ORD Date. Now that I'm "free", why do I still feel that something is lacking?

Haha, maybe I should go back to army...... maybe not.

Sometimes, a gentle touch from a loved one is all you need to refresh your gloomy day.

A friendly pat on the back rekindles the friendship of past.

A sincere smile brightens up other people's day.

A fitting compliment boosts a person's confidence.

Letting people pass first in the walkway proves your graciousness.

But how many really do that? Caught up in the midst of daily hassles, eye contact are avoided. Weak smiles are flashed.

"It is my right of way". And so, I left the door slamming shut in the face of the other person. Doesnt matter. His eyes are studying the floor intently too.

Me. Me. I. I. the world only revolves around me. How many times have I forgotten that I am not the type who will isolate himself in his lonely world?

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I dunno why the hell did this post came up. ha hahahah

i'm not upset or what. just an observation. oh well, all my friends, take care! the next time you see me and I do not see you, you are given the permission to shake me out of my daydream...

I realised that I have this ability to do many things at one time. Many other things except for the one with the top priority.

Yes, I believe most of us have this ability too. It is called procrastination.

Right now, I have just finished 1 out of 6 tutorial questions even though I was at my desk the whole Sunday. What was I doing then?

1) Reading online comic
2) Eating snacks
3) Listening to music
4) Absorbed in random musings
5) Checking the stock prices and the forums
6) Thinking of what to do for V-day
7) Opening drawers multiple times to test the soundness of their construction
8) Checking the mirror for any defects
9) Admiring my collection of music CDs and books
10) Admiring the bed that seemed so soft and comfortable
11) Thinking of going jogging, since it has been 2 weeks I last ran
12) Decided that walking to and fro the kitchen is also exercising, and began doing that at a regular rate
13) Opened the textbook and read the first paragraph
14) Repeated s/nos 1 to 13 in random order


Really, what a way to squander a beautiful weekend away...

i am glad i finally stopped and faced the problem.

no more running away.

i'm ... relieved.

for far too long, i have let the tides of fate bring me to my next destination in life. How many times have i fought against it?

Most of the time, i am contented to let the waves bring me along.

I am glad that i am finally facing up to it.

I remembered a person writing this in his blog: I am the master of my destiny.

How true.

it is 1.49am on a wed morning, and i am waking up 4 hours later to go to school.

yes, i am at home. yes, i have a hall too. wasting money? yes i am. haha haha

i just realised that i'm really out of shape. ya, i know i look slim and stuff, but looks can be deceiving. I ran to NEC from my hall, around 100m away. yeah, a few upslopes here and there, but i felt like i'm running a freaking marathon!!!

and my legs ACTUALLY feel sore now!!!!

NBCBKNN

hmmm, on a more serious note...

events this few days made me realise the importance of money. More specifically, the importance of having/earning your OWN money.

the freedom to do whatever you want

the freedom to splurge on whatever you want

the power you feel when u know u can afford it

of course, need to be sensible about spending right?

i wonder if i insist on spending more because i want to prove that i can afford it?

the male ego is sometimes a pain in the ass...

i really hope yeow and co can forgive me man...

I have been working since the day I finished my exams.

Not that I mind though. Otherwise, I will be bored by the third day after the exams.

Yeah, yeah, i hear your sniggles. Ha ha, it is really quite funny now that I think about it... taking care of "family business".... ha ha...

But I'm not complaining man. At least I can earn some money and learn new things.

Hmmm, maybe this holiday is a good time to meet up with long lost friends ...

but as most of you would predict, you can probably not see me at any club/pub wadever... haha, i'm still that fu@king guai and sibei boring guy you know in sec school....

i suppose once in a while is good ba... hmmmm, see how lor... i feel like i'm 31 instead of 21... what the hell am i doing man? hahahah

Alright!! 2 exams in a day... finally over!!

well, not as bad as i feared... in the end both papers are do-able papers...

WHEW

biz law next... now's the time to start studying!!!!!!

i love studying, i am a geek, i love studying, i am a geek

haha i think i'm crazy liao...

hmmm looks like i'll be working during the holidays!! big big money!!! hahahaha

i hate to post another depressing story ....

so....


hahahaha, 2 down, 3 more exams to go!

I LOVE discussing the accouting exam questions cos the discussion make me realise my mistakes and HOW MUCH MORE i can learn from it...

yup yup... positive ah... hahahahahha

met a friend who's studying in australia yesterday...

still the same old him, the same old smile, the same old humour

still as cheerful, still as friendly, still as "kiam pa"

hahaha


exam status: 1 down, 4 more to go....

i wonder how is everyone doing now... oh well....

sometimes i really wonder if studying hard getting a good grade then a job is really the way to go..... even though i have been telling my brother that for the sake of his o levels... somehow i don't really seem to think this way!

true, a good degree is necessary, but does it really gurantee you your financial well-being?

i'm not satisfied, and am always looking for ways to earn more money. sadly, i was that close to signing up for something that i'll regret... i'm glad that i didnt... hmmm i wonder how is he doing now...

greed really drives pple to do stupid things. I know that firsthand. It is really a thin line between ambition and greed.

so will i settle to graduate with an accountancy degree and get a stable job?

or will i be doing something else?

i have no idea, cos all the exams are clouding my goal now...

"so, what have you achieved for your dreams?" the "kiam pa" kia asked

seriously, no concrete plan yet. I suppose talking is so much easier than doing it.

the first and the hardest step is to take action. How many of us are in a "ready, aim, aim, aim...." mode?

the time's not right, the opportunity is not good enough, the pple's not right, the capital's not ready, the market is not ripe, i am very busy, i am not ready....

FUCK MAN.

what do you think will happen after i finish this post? yup, i'll go back to my studies and probably hide this at the back of my head.

Not that studies are not important. It is very important. But what about your goals? are you cruising through life with no particular goal in mind?

Looking back at my 21 years of existence, I think so. The path so well trodden by countless people before me.

I think it is important to know what you are doing, to know what are your goals. Only then, can you be ever happy at what you are doing.

Sorry for the long winded and incoherent post.... seriously, i wonder who actually reads all this shit... why don't you tag me so that i know? =) haha

You know you're fucked when

1) you're surfing the net for more "information" when you should be studying

2) you're blogging on a Sat morning in hall when you should be studying

3) you had a breakfast in hall that lasted 2 hours ("aiya, breakfast more important," i say)

4) 4 more days to the exams and i still "relax la, brother"

5) STILL TYPING ON THIS POST even after all that i typed in hope that the inner geek in me will wake up his blardy idea

ok, back to study.

Musings

haha, my tutorial mates are real crazy...

it is really a waste that I didn't really spend alot of time with them... perhaps I was too absorbed in my world...

Really, relationships with people are so much more important... and yet money and studies always take precedence...

Without money, how can you be happy? how can you afford the things that will make u and your loved ones happy?

Without education, how can you survive in Singapore? how can you achieve the knowledge that will make you succeed in life?

WIthout relationships with other people, who can you share your wealth and success with?

the paradoxes of life...

"If you don't have a car, you can never jio a girl."

is that really true? =)

haha, dunno la... i suppose i'm lucky lor

Exams, exams exams... how long has it been? 2 and a half years man... haha

how is everyone doing? frankly i'm not doing so well... i am always not focused... discipline has really been lacking these few weeks...

after the exams, a new challenge awaits!!