random thoughts...

Night off, Driving lesson No. 12, 2 more weeks to my driving test... HAI

At home, staying up so late, just to enjoy my freedom...

so many things to do, so little time...

WHY MUZ YOU GO SO FAR AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha .....

wonder how is everyone else OUTSIDE of army doing.... suddenly got those kind of ORD mood... just wanna heck care and play and play...

but i've got a job to do....

anyone up for supper? ANYONE!?!?!?

hai... what am i talking about? the only one who bothers to read is holidaying ....

HAI. back to work. Lights out timing: 0200. Reveille: 0600.

Sian.

bedok cmap

wow it has been more than a month since i updated my blog...

*blows dust off my blog*

oh well... i've been busy.... and a tiny bit lazy la... haha...
anyway whatever i write here i think only one person will see it anyway... and she has gone for a 2 week holiday!!!

*sigh*

never mind... anyway i'm attached to bedok camp now... in guards... the place's rundown but the logistics side is trying their best to equip the camp asap... so kudos to them for that...

my ps seems like a very nice person... and so all the section commanders... hopefully i'll get to know them better as time goes by...

truthfully i'm quite excited about the new recruits.... it'll be a fresh challenge....

so what do i do during my free time? driving lessons lor... test is in 1 month's time... wish me luck!!

someone told me before she left: dun go and anyhow meet up with girls ah!!

hai... she knew what i was planning right from the start =)

no la... i'll never break her heart....

when i next book out, i'll update my blog again... HOPEFULLY...

whew....

well, someone has been breathing down my neck for not updating my blog... so well... actually i think only she reads my blog lor... so actually makes no differenece wad! i can juz tell her what's happening right? instead of posting it on a blog?

"THEN YOU HAVE THIS BLOG FOR WHAT!!!"

case closed.

well, this month's has been rather interesting for me. clocked over 90 hours of gameplay at FFX, spent half of my day sleeping, watching anime, meeting my gf.... basically just enjoying the time to slack during my lull period.

then i went back to work. suddenly, admin instructions, briefings, screaming at recruits seem so routine now. though they are pes c, so we cant reli do anything to them either. the challenge now is how i respond to all their medical conditions... hai... becoming a full time doctor liao....

okie later... gotta meet my dear liao....

Phuket trip!

well, Phuket was so much more fun than expected. Though there are only a few of us, we still had a lot more fun... thinking back, it wasnt such a bad idea after all to travel in a smaller group.... in this way we can go everywhere as a group and not be faced with people not wanting to go somewhere or whatever....

I must say that i felt guilty about indirectly forcing them to go for the sa package. hahaha, i reli have absolutely no idea that they felt forced to go for the package because of me.... hai... i'm glad that they enjoyed themselves...
to quote one of them : this is the first time that i'm being forced to do something and i like it....

hahahhahahahahhaha

but sometimes i do forget about my position though.... sorry guys...

now tml and the day after is atp....

just when i was about to sleep... the image of the zeroing tool and the pincer flashed in front of my eyes.

I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank god my armskote spec is able to conjure out pincers for me... heng ah...

for whoever is reading my blog and wondering what i'm blabbering about (not many of you who know of this blog anyway)...

zeroing is something that MUST be done before a shooter can shoot ACCURATELY with his rifle. to zero a weapon, you'll need a zeroing tool or pincer. Got it?

whew. 9pm book in... feels like a recruit all over again hahahah

i pray that everything will go smoothly on both days.... HAI

hai

my dear went to phuket this morning... i wasnt able to send her off as i have to go for some army exhibition... which is almost like the ndp carnival at marina bay!!

talk about wasting my time...

and even worse... now the so called cohesion trip only got 10... TEN people going... including mr lee, oc and his wife... i mean... WTF rite??? isnt it supposed to be a cohesion trip???? damn it man... and to think we can use this trip to build up our cohesiveness and stuff... HAI...

but the worst thing is... i actually gave up going to phuket with dear so that i can go on this cohesion trip.. KNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i think about it also super dumb lor... HAI HAI HAI....

well at least i can meet her there on sat nite....
tml sdo... hope nothing cock up...

enlistment duty...

well today finished understudy for enlistment duty... overall can la juz that it's vv boring... tml i'll be the oic... hope i dun cock things up... and on monday i'm oic for canteen... haiiiiiii .. and still muz do my AI for atp... i suddenly feel like a fig 11 target board....

today i had this unpleasant experience that made my blood boil. seriously, at that instant, i was so angry that i just couldnt speak. well... at tft i was there on time to catch the ferry... so when i scan my card... the machine doesnt respond (prob it has been resetted for the next ferry0. so the ferry operator told me to wait for the next boat.

Well, the ferry is just there. didnt even leave yet. the person in front of me was only like 50m away. so obviously he's just being a lazy ass and dun wanna let me in. so i plead with him. can i take this boat? can i take this boat? i repeated a few times earnestly (sounds like a kid who wants a toy badly hor) cos i have a appointment later and might be late if i miss the fastcraft.

in the end, he (wrong , the f!!ker) said: NO. TAKE THE NEXT BOAT. SIT DOWN. and pointed at one of the seats.

I REALLY WANNA TEAR OFF HIS COCK AND SHOVE IT UP HIS ASS. AND RIP OFF HIS BALLS AND STUFF THEM DOWN HIS THROAT.

bloody d@ckhead.

anyway, i'm not angry anymore. i realised that such people are reli beneath me. there's no need to get angry over such trival things. one muz learn to forgive and forget.

but mabbe i'll just shoot an email down just for the heck of it. (nah just kidding...)

sometimes i really wonder how come there are some inconsiderate, cold, pig headed, inflexible and myopic people around. they are the culprits who exemplify the ugly singaporean. hai

go to sleep. tml wake up another long day. hope everything goes smoothly tml. hmmm muz remember to draw key for canteen and batt for mic tml for monday's duty.

miss you man...

condolences...

a terrible thing has happened in the US. may God watch over the victims. may President Bush wake up his idea and send more help to them.

HAI seriously i can never comprehend how an airplane can just crash even before it climbs to higher altitudes. is money so important that safety is compromised?

these few weeks have not been a very good week for the global community... let's hope that the natural and manmade disasters will come to an end.

off day...

do you know that you can play game unil your hand cramp up?

mine did.... hahahahhaha.....

well... now i only left with 5 bucks... my posb account got 10 dollars cannot draw out... ocbc account frozen up due to lost atm card.... EVEN if i wanna top up my ezlink card also not enough....

feel like a pauper leh.....

speaking of which, i think i'm gonna have a financia crisis when i ord... where the hell do i get extra money?????? looks like i have to give tuition and blah blah blah liao.... oh well....

hmmm hand is back to normal... back to the game.. =)

happy bdae to me!

well... here i am... stuck in tekong... spending my birthday here... on this island... typing on this com... sounds pathetic?

well actually i'm reli fine with it la.... cos i really had a damn good weekend last week...so no complaints!

haha... and i'm gonna get my component or s video cable when i book out... as a small present to myself ba... and mabbe some games too... haha for my beloved brother.... i think he dun even know i have a blog lor hahahhaha

hmmm......... come to think of it... haven been a good brother... =[ hai...

the BEST time of my life!!

well, i'm sure most of you will have known that my girlfriend has now become the perfect girlfriend for other people to emulate....

in summary, she put in so much effort to throw a surprise bbq cum chalet for me even though she's studying and worrying about her sis who's sick....

i'm damn touched... f!!king touched....... hai how to find some1 like her?

join tj climbing club lor... hahhaha

thanks alot for that surprise bbq dear... =)

thanks to all my frenz who are in cahoots with my gf... i'm vv vv happy that all of you came down that day....

FINALLY A NEW POSt!!

hahahahah.... well... been awol from blogging for a month liao... actually i was thinking of shutting down my blog.... but well.... after hearing what FAt said... he's rite la... i shld juz continue...

well... today went for ahs ncc gathering.... pretty cool as all the batches from the 96 batch to the present part d batch were here... wah... i think mr seah muz have put in alot alot of effort... kinda missed him man... but i'm glad that he's doing okie... (though he has put on some weight)

it was reli nice seeing the rest of my ahs ncc buddies... though our lives have drifted apart... you guys will still have a special place in my heart.... yeah i know it's mushy and so unbecoming of a guy... but hey! i dun give a shit =p

got my contacts today... well i picked up a trivia fact: do you know that among the opticians, there exist a person who actually spent 3 (THREE) HOURS putting on his/her contact lenses for the 1st time!! hahahaha.... (NO it's not me...)

next few weeks gonna be hectic... hai...............

wake me up... when september ends....=p

hai.... how suay can a person be?

my birthday falls on my 24km route march... how to take off?!?!?! hhhaaaaiiiiiiii

the next week will be their field camp... hahaha tekan like siao!

some of the pl1 guys were caught playing soccer... this is the first time i'm so angry that i lost my rationale.... whew i think they see my face also scared ah... reli leh... i can feel my heart beating furiously.... i think even one of my sergeants was scared... hahahha

anyway, they got one of my commanders in trouble la... so they're confined til tml... sigh ... their last weekend before field camp and still do this kind of stupid thing....


one of my commanders (who's gonna ord soon) asked me : sir you don't go chong one ah? how come so guai?

hmmm... how do i answer him? muz i go chong to blend in with the in crowd? it's our personl preference wad... i dont like going there cos it wastes my money, my time and can sometimes stir shit wad... (ie i get too drunk and start to tackle any person with breasts)...

den i'll probably die a more horrible death... lol

but seriously, i dun mind going once in a blue moon la... but every 2 weeks or so den go... wa you dun feel tired meh?

hmmm maybe my life has always been a eventful journey... my life cannot twist and turn unexpectedly... i cant stand it when such things happen and i cant control it... everything must go smoothly as expected...

yup... i'm lidat... but i'm trying to change... realised that life's alot more than just a script... we hold the crayons and our life is a blank canvas for us to doodle on....every meaningful thing we do will result in an even more beautiful picture...

sunday morning...

it's 8am on a sunday morning.... just spent my sat afternoon with my dear and had a quarrel about an issue that we always kbkp about... but in the end... everything's nice and happy and everyone lived happily after la... haha

well... these few months i'm gonna be broke...

july there's joann's bdae... dun even think i can book out wor... sorry man...so i wish you happy bdae first ah

august my dad's bdae... i think i'll treat him to a karaoke session ba...

september is MY bdae....

and my brother's bdae... he wants a k750i leh.... haiz

and tammy's bdae...

sigh.... how to save money lidat?

mabbe i shld become the nkf ceo ah...

hmmmm... the feeling when you look at a person you love sleeping is so....nice...=)

next two weeks gonna be field camp soon........ sian ah.....................................

run run away ya...

wa lau... i never felt so unfit in my life!

today went to run with the recruits.. thought it will be a breeze... turns out that they're improving faster then expected... though i'm very happy for them.. it also means that i muz go train harder liao... the last 2 weeks i haven been training... haiyo slack liao slack liao...

so to get my IPPT GOLD!?!?!?

200 leh... try la try la...

well mabbe this weekend i'll finally move into my new room and tidy up abit... mabbe that will give me some motivation to go and buy my hi fi... but hor the dinner already cost me 120...

i dun understand why nsf muz go for such dinners... no point what we'll just eat and go... leave the mingling to the regulars...

principles....

principles are the moral values that you hold true to yourself... in every decision you make... it will be guided by your principles... i sincerely hope that all my decisions made follow my principles... but i know that sometimes it may not be so...

as we grow older, we may find that the world is forcing us to put aside our principles for the sake of convenience. is it reli viable? will you feel happy? mabbe in the short term it helps... but in the long term you will find yourself lost... lost in the world where everybody else is trying to take advantage of each other.. where everybody else tries to backstab each other...

must we reli resort to that? i feel that as long as you have this set of personal principles in you... your inner core which will never change... i strongly believe that whatever decisions you make... you will not regret them... nobody can find fault with you... even if they do... you yourself know that you have upheld your own integrity and your own principles...

for now... i'm still struggling to adhere to my principles...

story

well.... rather long nv blog liao...

today kana arrowed for scolding session by higher hq...

for wad? why muz you do that for? juz because YOUR boss screw you upside down? come on la... can you stop thinking you're so mighty and invincible? well i understand that mabbe your job's at stake but still, i'm sure you should have some common sense and integrity right?

do you reli feel so good that you're able to use your rank to impose your views on me, that is i've done something wrong and you're gracious enough to forgive me?

fuck you.

first of all, we have been doing the same thing since dunno when. no one pointed out that we should go down personally to check. second, what's the big deal about sending this first before the other shit? what exactly is the big deal? cos that'll give you a call from EVEN higher hq that'll promise to squeeze your balls?

i'm damn sure i abide by my own principles and i have ensured that everything within my tour of duty is taken care of.

sometimes, the way this place works is reli..... inbearable. but i dun care. i pity you though. i wonder if you're reli worth your rank. anyway, i may be wrong.

just my moment of anger.

back to camp. tml cdo. MABBE there will reli be someone checking on 5bx. hahhahaha

miss you babe.... it's great to see you.... especially since my weekend is like just 12 hours... but okie la treasure the time more hee....

third time!!!!!!!!!!

basket this is the third time blogging cos of the stupid server... TMD!!!

anyway... thanks kelvin for tahing my lesson today... didnt know that i muz conduct the lesson today... hai... thanks 2ic!!!

gonna refurish my room with tv and hi fi!!! yeay!!

my dear's going taiwan tml... hope she'll enjoy her time there... i think she will la... taiwan's a great place to shop and eat!! haha asked her to help me buy some comics...

well... sourcing for my tv and hi fi now.... any recommendations?
tv : $400 (29") tcl i think got...
hi fi: $500 to 600... hai a denon one cost 1k... so i guess that's out of qtn... mabbe a pioneer one lor or philips... or yamaha... aiya...

wa lau, just now i just innocently told my dad that i'm having foot rot... den he suddenly come up with a super sure work plan on treating it. Try it at your own risk.

step 1: get some rice wine, slather over white paper and use it to cover the affected area.

step 2: drip ooil over a rolled up newspaper and light it. (Not KIDDING!)

step 3: use the flaming newspaper and whack at the affected area. (I'M NOT BLUFFING! I RELI KANA THIS!!)

note: obviously, you'll feel heat on ur foot...

step 4: repeat steps 1 to 3 for the other foot.

well, they say that my foot looked better. to me, they looked the same, only smarting a little from the flames.

oh well, at least the itching stopped.

back to camp, tml is saf day...

take care my friend...

one of my bmt friends just passed away.

you never realise how fragile a life can be until it happens when you least expected it.

my condolences to his family, relatives and loved ones.

it's reli a pity, he has a bright future ahead of him.... sometimes, life's so unpredictable...

guys and gals, please treasure the people you love and don't take them for granted....

dear God, please look after him...

going back camp liao lo...

almost 1am, and i'm online...

sometimes, civilian life is so much fun and free that i just dun feel like wasting any of that time away... but i need to sleep soon... i got to get the 1st ferry tml or else...

just watched "series of unfortunate event' with my dear... quite a nice show surprisingly... haha... okie i'll be honest: i thought that it would be a bad show alrite?

she's not feeling very well these 2 days.... hope she'll recover after a good night's rest...

now then i realise that people are not as simple as they seem... most of the time they can be cursing and swearing at you in their hearts and still smile and joke and laugh with you.... well i dun give a shit about what you think man... i know i'm in the wrong and i've apoplogised... i'll always be sorry for that but please dun get other people involved and hate them too... they're innocent and should not be subjected to your criticism, even thought you dun have any right to do so.

can't we just live in a world where there is no hidden agenda and feelings? why can't we be naive once again and live in the picture perfect world when we were young?

sometimes growing up isn't such a good thing, but i believe that it will make me stronger....

okie eyelids are weighing at least 1 ton now... good nite everyone... it's back to my extended family of 49 members tomorrow....

i'm so dead...

well, it's 6am now... so what am i doing online at 6am on a saturday morning? HAI

i'm such a pig.... how can i just fall asleep and leave everyone hanging there, wondering where i am? the worst thing is, i couldnt be there for her when she needs me... what the hell... how coem this kinda thing always happen to me one.. mabbe i'm a pig in my previous life... hah

so how can i gonna appease my highness? AARRRGGGHHHH!!! i'm done for...

FINALLY OUT!!

well guys, i'm finally out!! yup yup... if you guys dunno, i'm also confined with the recruits ... they booked out last nite, but the commanders have a life run and seminar and happy hour today... so yup now finally all is over!! my precious weekend....

anyway during the life run, was thinking some random thoughts and comments and fantasies...

Scenario 1:

there was this sergeant who has this cocky attitude. while i was doing duty he was attitude to the max... seriously, i've nv loathe a guy that i've never seen before man... so during the run he was in front of me...

me: hey d!@khead! you reli think you're so good at running? eat this!!!

ran past him leaving him eating dust and smelling my fart...

of cus, that's a fantasy... the fact is that he is in front of me all the way... oh well.... bleah

once there are 2 identical cows in 2 identical caves. One day, a wolf came and ate the cow on the left. WHY!????

cos the cow on the left is super sway..... lol


okie okie... well today had a lecture cum admonishing session by our CO. he's not pleased with the incidents that happened recently and made sure that we understood his tough stance on negligent commanders.

It certainly woke most of us up. truthfully, sometimes we just go through motion and treat recruits indifferently. whatever happened to the professionalism that commanders should possess? while i do not think of myself as 100% professional, i always try to make sure i'm professional enough during my duty. sometimes, our complancency can cause injury to our recruits. a lesson well learnt.

everyday is a new day to learn.

discipline, team spirit, positive attitude...
these few days have been quite boring. feel like taking night off someday. hee den can spend some time with some beloved gal...

sir i not feeling well...

nowadays if anyone tells me that, my heart will skip a few beats. when such emphasis being placed on the tagging of recruits with injuries/ status, nowadays i think that the focus of bmt has shifted to safety at all cost.

i agree that such measures taken are very good and should be implemented. however, i think that this system in its infancy is causing some administrative chores now. i believe that every recruit should be tagged if he has status, perhaps a computerised method of doing so will be a good idea?

just my 2 cents...

okie back to more light hearted topics...

arrrgh i wanna go overseas suddenly... haha one of the lao jiao sect com going to disrupt tml... how i envy him man...anyway...

i got a new phone! k750i... and i dropped it during 24km route march.. wad a cock...
my heart froze and my balls dropped when the phone slipped out of my hand... now there's a small dent on the side... hai heart break leh...

bought it before its official launch @ 490 2 yr plan singtel... after trade in of n6610 @ 200 bucks! haha... i'm lucky la.. but now the price all dropping liao... hia nbm buy liao den forget it lor...

random thought of the day: actually it's okie to have a good working relationship... not everybody will be your friend... as long as we can work well together... i suppose it's okie la...

seriously being an officer now... i kinda missed my frenz in ocs tj ahs... hai

today i went for night off.

quite a number of people gave remarks and expressions that seem to tell me that i shldnt go for night off.

oh well.... i suppose i will be like this if i'm not booking out... hee

but i kinda pity my recruits though... 3 weeks confinement... hai

anyway, my night off is well worth it... haha finally got to spend some time with her...

50 guys under me.... 50 names to remember... i'm like so dead... i'm not good with names man... hai ... booking in 2330 tonite... which means i only have 15 min more........ let me guess... when i book in, they'll ask me "eh got buy any food?"

me: no

them: wa lau... !@#$%^

haha... routine liao.... tml got boss's address... hope nothing cock up cos i'm do!!

okie must go liao... hmm this post's rather mundane hor... aiya wadever la this week dun think can book out liao cos sat i kana duty... sian... sometimes i just lost sight of my purpose here... how? officer wad... everything also muz be professional rite? lead by example...

i truly believe in that.. but can you please cut us some slack? i'm human too... can you please let me make mistakes without critizing me? looks like my self worth must reli be there for me to survive....

aiya balls la i'm toking cock .... blur liao haha

GRENADE!!!

live grenade throwing is smth that i dread the most in bmt.

as a commander, you have to be at the frenade throwing bay to guide the recruits. Thank God that i'm still in one piece. Let me share one true life scenario :

recruit: permission to enter the bay sir!

me: enter

recruit takes up position and prepares to take out grenade.

me: how come your hands are shaking? are you okie?

recruit: sergeant tell me to tell you that i'm a very dangerous man...

my balls went up to my throat.

me: yeah, i can tell... just keep calm and think back on the grenade throwing drill you went through just now ok?

recruit: the practice grenade lever flew off as i removed the safety pin...

(for those who dunno, when the lever flew off, the grenade will ignite in 6 secounds)

I almost fainted on the spot.

me: okie... now let me show you how to hold the grenade carefully...

it's very impt not to stress such recruits out by screaming at them... after all my life is in their hands...

so after much practice..

me: THROW!

recruit threw the grenade successfully. I thanked God, Guan Yin, Allah, Di Zhu Gong Gong and the rest of them...

i survived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some thoughts...

my 1st batch of recruits juz graduated... i watched their parade... i'm just like the proud father of 44 ... seeing them march past is so........ hmmm

later on.. a few of them came up to me and said thank you sir. a simple gesture, yet i felt so touched.

perhaps i nv did enough for them... they are my 1st batch of recruits... i reli hoped they enjoyed themselves in bmt under my charge...

(oh, some of their sisters are vv pretty... just a random comment la... =p)

next batch will be the ptp batch... much more interaction... stress...

my specialists are reshuffled... hope this team will be as great as the previous team...

tml my 2nd batch of recruits will be coming in.... please God let me have a god start!!!

my first...

hey, it's me... reli ... it's me ... khoo say wei posting a blog...
wad the hell for??? he?? of all the pple in the world?

yeah... me lor... actually blogging sound quite fun la... juz that i'm super super lazy to do it... until now... when i have some time to do up a blog before reporting for work tml...

oh well... updates on me.... seems that i reli reli have lost contact with so many of my dear frenz...

i'm now working in tekong... a king maker!

still with her...

still as blur as ever...

still easily bullied...

still the same old me...

as insensitive as ever... always nv keep in touch with frenz...

hmmmmmmm saw the redang pics from toogees... sometimes reli envy them... seems like not too long ago i was part of that gang too... am i still included? haha

mmy ocs frenz... how are all of u?

my ncc frenz...

dear...

suddenly... i find myself so warped up in my world that everyone is fading away...

just a sudden random thought =)